Tell us a secret that no one else knows?

[GloomyWaters]

Me...by the end of this year I will be divorced...DH has no idea!

I hate myself. Don't think I'm a nice person.

@BetterThanKleenex

When my grandmother was moved into a care home she asked only me to empty her house and sell it. I was very close to her and lived with her on and off through my childhood. I found out she had 19 children- only one survived past the age of 3. No one in my family knows and I'm the only person who visits their grave. She passed away a few years ago and left everything to me including a box of photos of every child she lost, along with their handmade blankets and a rattle or keepsake for each of them. I have the photos on display in my house, in a room she would have loved by the garden. And I have 18 roses you can see from the window.

It is immeasurably sad for your Grandmother but what a beautiful tribute, sounds like you've done her proud x

@blissfulllife

'I knew full well I was going to leave and divorce my exh when he went for his vasectomy'

Same.

@betterthankleenex how did 17 children die before the age of 3 if you don't mind me asking?

In MS Teams meetings which drag on for 2 hours plus, I put my feet up, make sure the video off, and doze off as at times they are so boring and certain people hog the meeting 😳

Works for me 👍

Sorry 18 children*

[quote Wide]@betterthankleenex how did 17 children die before the age of 3 if you don't mind me asking?[/quote]
@Wide I don't mind at all. I've not found every cause yet- she has a lot of diaries she kept during that time which are difficult to read through. So far though the causes of death are stillbirths and 'fevers' and what I think could be SIDS-. A few of the children are recorded as having died in their sleep with no prior signs of ill health. As far as I know she didn't have any conditions that could be passed on or cause stillbirths or unwell children.

Thank you, @SleepingStandingUp that's lovely of you to say x

I have a horrible, deep-rooted fear that I am secretly an awful, manipulative person tricking people into thinking I'm kind.

I know that this is more common a belief than people realise, but being very self-aware and analytical doesn't actually stop the anxiety :(

Also, I'm the zodiac killer.

@FVFrog

In 8 years my spousal maintenance will stop and my income will fall off a cliff. I will be 61. I have no idea what I will do. I am completely burying my head in the sand about it. I have a vague plan that if I still feel the same way I do about life in general now I will save up a regular prescription medicine I have and just take my own life. I have no excitement or joy about the future and just live day to day. You would never guess this if you knew me, I put on a very good front.

Are you not working? If you're only 53 now, that's a good working age!

@betterthankleenex wow that's really sad, to have had that happened so many times!! Good job she had you ❤️

@CheesyCheddar17 why do you think that's funny? It's not.

@Wide It's horrible isn't it- I was lucky to have her ❤️

@Wrotten

I don't want the baby I'm carrying.

I felt like this. From day 1. I even had an abortion booked. I don't want to put thoughts of rainbows & glittery shit everywhere, but honestly she's 2 now & I love her. She's my best mate. And this is coming from me, the person who hated being pregnant, & didn't even want to hold her when she was born. Be kind to yourself ❤️ @Wrotten

After I found out my XH cheated on me I gave away half of his pop star collectibles collection to a Cancer Research charity shop. Including a signed, framed photo of the singer. Not saying which one as could lead to identifying in RL. After we split up and he was packing his crap he asked me if I knew where’ these things were with a bit of suspicion in his voice. I burst out crying and made him feel guilty by saying he cared more about poxy memorabilia than me. He felt bad snd i felt happily evil 🦹‍♂️

@Suki2

I've always said no because I was told from the start it would come off when I was 18. I've never considered it lying, it happened when I was a kid. Nothing to do with my adult life at all.

When I get bad insomnia the only thing that can help me get to sleep is sucking on a dummy,

@Saranade4 What the actual fuck are you talking about? You know nothing about the medical history but you're happy to tell someone their grandparent was a mass murderer?!

@Saranade4 She was dead when I found out so no, I didn't report her to the police? Most of the children died in hospital so there would be a record of it and it's unlikely she would be murdering her own children in a hospital. There were 3 or 4 children who died from what I think could be SIDS which at the time, where they lived and considering their siblings died, seems to not be suspicious. Pretty sure she wasn't a serial killer, but thanks!

I inherited nearly £250,000 and it just sits in various a/cs unused because I don't have any need/ want to spend any of it. It's been there 5 years and still doesn't feel like mine . No mortgage / debts to pay off, don't want to buy another property.

I have a mega crash on a work colleague. I think he knows but nothing will happen (he’s married). I’m in my 40s but feel like a teenager around him!

That's awful robin3rdwheel

I'm sure you've heard this before, but in my experience, penis size is irrelevant to pleasure - what counts is that your lover is sensitive and considerate.