Funnily enough, I've seen a few double/triple maskers at work recently. They mix in well with those who pull their masks down to talk to me! Someone asked me if I was 'terrified' being at work regularly. She was double masked. A lot younger than me aswell. I'm always surprised at fear of covid in young people.
We've had a power cut. It's back on now but at 5am when it came back DS's clock radio turned on and woke him up so he came in and woke me up to turn it off. I've been awake since.
I'm worrying about Easter holiday childcare again. I know this is stupid as it's February but I don't know what I'm going to do. I can't take another weeks holiday at easter because then I'll only have 2 weeks remaining between now and the 2 weeks I have to take next Christmas. That would be such a long time for DS to be in either school or paid care.
My mum has said my refusal of the vaccine means they can't mix with me or DS even when restrictions are lifted. It feels a lot like emotional blackmail and I feel very angry about it. I haven't spoken to her since because it got quite unpleasant. If I believed me having the vaccine would make them spend time with us I'd do it but I know there'd be another excuse when the time came. It feels like there's always an excuse. And I resent being made to feel I'm a bad parent/putting DS at risk by refusing. Sometimes I think they haven't noticed that DS is changing his affections to others who aren't always telling him to get back or move away. I've noticed. And I think that's their loss. There's unlikely to be anymore grandchildren so if they can't see him because I'm dangerous then the people who really lose out are them.