OK, who else is struggling?

[Thorilicious]

Lockdown 1, I was doing new activities, baking, cleaning and exercising.
This time round, I'm tired, my sleep is all over the place. I end up at least once a day arguing with dcs about doing their school work. I have no escape from the dcs, when normally they'd be at school and I'd be at work.
I know it won't be like this forever, but just need to know I'm not the only one...

Yep I'm struggling. Been quite teary as well. Both kids now isolating as we had a double bubble burst on Friday. Struggling to manage toddler and dedicate time to school aged child. Just getting over bronchitis with symptoms starting on 3rd January so I've been ill for nearly a whole month and no hope of rest and now I've fucked up my knee and can barely walk.

Honestly I've had enough now.

@Robbybobtail same 😞

Yes, it’s honestly shite

On good days my concentration is shit, I'm unproductive at work, sluggish generally.
On bad days it's the same but I cry all the time.
And I almost don't understand it. I look back over an emotional week wondering what the hell happened. But come Sunday night that knot of anxiety returns and I'm off again.

I’ve totally hit a wall today and told my DH I simply can’t cope anymore, I can’t do it. It’s all just got too much.

I have 5 DC and I’m on maternity leave right now with my 6 month old. I have nipple thrush, I’ve had it for 7 weeks and I’ve been back and forth to the GP about ten times. Nothing is working so I’m on the verge of quitting breastfeeding because I’m either in pain or unbearably itchy all of the time. The GP said stress can make it worse, well there’s little chance of the stress ending soon!

I also have a 2 year old and an 8, 9 and almost 11 year old. 8 and 10 year old mostly crack on with the work their teacher’s set with little complaint. 9 year old is a completely different kettle of fish. She needs 1:1 support with the majority of her work, she screams and shouts and flails around. Today she missed a zoom lesson on purpose, she kept shutting the MacBook down and storming out of the room. We had a big argument, she screamed and shouted for about 30 mins straight. I sent her to her room, she screamed some more. It was so much fun. No idea why she gets like this, I think she thinks if she screams enough I won’t make her do the work but that’s never the case.

I spend about 30 mins uploading all of their work every day too and I know only half of the class are bothering because the teachers have said as much. The teacher then dared to tell me I need to start marking the work before I upload it which just filled me with irrational rage tbh. I sometimes end up spending 2 hours solid just with DD, the other DC don’t get the same level of attention which isn’t fair and I feel so guilty.

I’m struggling to keep up with the housework on top of all of this and I’m resentful of DH for getting to leave every morning to go to work. Feel like he’s shunning his responsibilities and the burden is all on me and it just isn’t fair. I’m snappy, exhausted, frustrated and angry. I need help.

I have started cycling up and down my street with a podcast on. It's a long, quite steep hill and I just go up and down and up and down for about half an hour.

It sounds a bit mad but it's quite meditative, gets my heart pumping and some fresh air, and is a good break from the house.

This morning I cried, threw the dishes from the (unemptied) dishwasher against the wall and rage cleaned the kitchen floor.
I felt better after and went back to homeschool and work.
I haven't slept properly for two years and this has sent me over the edge. I am done. I really feel I am going a bit crazy.

to everyone.

Same here. Totally bored and totally lacking in any motivation. Nothing at all to look forward to. Oh and severe back injury and sciatica! Today feeling v pessimistic about the future with all these new f$%king variants that keep appearing.

Yeah me too.
Had annual leave postponed 3 times now because we've needed cover/extra staff because of others self isolating or just needing more staff because we have quite a few poorly with Covid and need more hands.
It's hard and I'm exhausted, it's just a constant hamster wheel and I want to get off. I don't have time to support my DD with college, not even really to listen to her offload because I'm either back off out the door, or drop off to sleep every time I stop moving because I'm so knackered.
I realised how utterly fucked off I am this morning when I really had to stop myself losing it with the guy in front of me at the checkout. Long, busy and emotional night shift. Shop on my way home for something to eat and some gas and the guy in front of me, at 9am was rat arsed, stinking, no mask, no concept of SD, had his card declined trying to buy more booze and proceeded to argue with and abuse the poor assistant serving him because his card was declined and he couldn't take his booze.
I got so angry with him, shop assistant was welling up as he gave out to her and I broke ranks and went and got the security guard, because I honestly didn't trust myself not to hoik him out myself if I'd got involved.
It's not like me to react like that, I'd normally go and get the security guard in a situation like that but I was thinking all sorts of uncharitable things about that man, and I didn't care what was going on in his life, he had no right to take it out on everyone else in his path. Not my normal reaction at all, but my patience with people behaving like that is getting thinner and thinner.

Yes. I’m miserable.

Up until Christmas I was fine! I was managing and in fact felt calmer and healthier than I had in years. Since the year started, it’s like I’m having some kind of delayed trauma response. I’m absolutely exhausted and feel totally rundown. Wake up feeling anxious in the night, then when my alarm goes off I’m deeply asleep and feel sick with exhaustion and having to face the day. I hate work with a passion at the moment and have lost all motivation. I’m really worried about my children’s well-being. I miss my mum and dad. I miss my friends.

I just cannot seem to lift myself out of this funk. Longing for lighter, warmer days in the hope that will flip me out of this misery.

Me. Keep feeling like I’m about to fall into a black pit.

It is somewhat reassuring to know you’re not alone.
This is utterly awful. I am beyond frustrated and now just so demoralised, despondent and down right depressed. I don’t know how we’re supposed to get up every day to the same routine day in and day out. It needs to end soon or I darent think what the consequences will be.

Awful I'm struggling badly.
I'm snappy and shouty at my two DCs both toddlers I've had enough no break from them or freedom to come and go to do things outside of the house.
I'm missing my friends and family so much.
DH is doing his best to try and work from home when he can but it's literally just me and the kids during the week days and weekends aren't much better.

I am too..

I miss going to the office to get a break from the house and the kids. I miss my drive home from work which was my chance to de-stress and calm a little before seeing the kids.

Now, I'm home all the time, working at the kitchen table, stressed from work and cant separate work from home, snapping at the kids. I make them good dinners but dont eat properly myself. Im sor tired and going to bed early, and rarely leave the house.

Also I would love to be able to get outside and go for long walks but my DS is almost 4 and has autism so it's not easy he has regular melt downs and my DD is almost 2 and she's a typical 2 year old at the moment both hard work when trying to go outside and too much for me to try and control them on my own plus I end up just being so miserable when DS is kicking off it takes the joy out of going outside

Big time. The weather has made it worse. So so bored and fed up of the same thing every day.

I'm absolutely on my knees. Two DC being homeschooled and a 6 month old baby. There's is nowhere quiet I can take him for his nap time and I can't give any of my boys individual attention. It is utter shit.

Me😫

If nurseries would just open I could cope. I don’t mind not going anywhere but trying to hold down a full time job and look after a toddler is a fat steaming pile of shit. Oh, and I’m 29 weeks pregnant.

I'm struggling. Massively. This lockdown seems so much harder than the last 1. All my motivation has gone. I have a 14yr old dd and feel so guilty going to work every day and leaving her at home. She logs on and does her work but school dont seem to set much, the other day she had 1 worksheet to do. I feel like I'm failing her, it's such a long day alone with no interaction. I really feel for those who are trying to work from home but having to go to work feeling like your abandoning your child for a day is awful, I have no idea what she gets up to all day or who she talks to. It's not like I can turn the internet off as she needs it on for school. Work is awful, so monotonous and people falling out as theres just nothing to distract everyone from the gloom. I feel like I'm losing a grip of everything right now. I have no interest in anything and it scares me

I have no young DC, so no pressure there (don't know how you all manage that btw) but I am struggling this time (single). I haven't stopped eating since Christmas, every 'bad' food you can imagine. I'm wearing the same clothes, rarely do anything to my hair/face, just don't see the point..it's bloody depressing..

Oh and it's bloody freezing here too

Hugely. I've cried a lot today

I’ve decided to go to bed
DD1 has been vomiting
Work is really intense

I would love to have a walk but last went outside maybe on Sunday - been non-stop from 6 in the morning to whenever I crash into bed which is normally after midnight as I would work some more but I am too tired tonight

I just feel sad all the time.

I cried lots yesterday. I'm sure it won't be the last.

Everyone I know is struggling.
Everyone I know with dc of all ages aren't doing much school work because they are all struggling to cope with this shit and the parents have given up arguing about it.