So today I got accepted for ivf. Put on the waiting list and been told it's likely to be 2022. That's fine! But in that time I need to get my bmi to 25 and under. It's currently 52, judge away I know I've mainly done this to myself. Eating my feelings, steroids for my Crohns and mirtazapine haven't helped, but it's mostly me. I'm in hospital until Wednesday because of a molar pregnancy but on Thursday evening I've signed up for an exercise shred, 4 x classes a week and a calorie goal to stick to.
I can do this. I HAVE TO DO THIS.
So if you also have weight to lose or just want to watch a fatty transform her life in 18 months join in! There is no judgement here.
Today's weight 20 stone 4 pounds (I know because I was weighed for my treatment and I cried but it's over now. Good bye that weight, I will never see you again)
I will also be trying to walk 10k steps a day and god help me if I don't do it at work when I'm back there the dog isn't going to know to what's hit her!
I'm also going to try and practice intuitive/ mindful eating.. I'm getting used to it in hospital as the food is shit but also I'm using the calm app for my emotions and I'm trying really hard to deal all with all the shit that's going on in my head and not eat away my feelings.
I'll be using this as a blog/ diary if no one joins me so don't feel like you have to join in :) but if you want a safe space to talk about wanting to weigh less or you're thinking about doing it but don't know where to start or you just want to chat about how shit it is to be addicted to food/ have learnt to use food as a coping mechanism then welcome :)
But there is no body shaming here, no fat shaming, no thin shaming, everyone is different let's do this 