Hello, may I join you? I have lurked a little in your threads, and have just spent a couple of days reading the last one completely (I’m a slow reader and you lot are chatty!). It’s lovely to read what seems to be the only sane voice I hear at the moment.
I’ve poked my head up now because I am really struggling to be empathetic to DH. I strongly suspect he has an ASD, and he is just so terrified of this all, and is banking everything on “following the rules”. He gets so angry and upset when he goes out and encounters people not wearing masks, or not following a one-way system, then comes home and rants to me about the stupidity, and how unintelligent they must all be, and how this is the reason we are in the state we are. I tried to argue, but in the last couple of days I’ve realised that this is from a place of terror not arrogance, so I can’t counter it by reason. So I’ve gone to simply sympathising with him. But that leaves me with no one to talk to about my position. Which is more closely aligned to here! My lovely, lovely DS had a really hard start to school, was bullied by teachers and students alike - we swapped schools, he had one year of HELL while he worked through what had happened, and was just blossoming back into the wonderful, kind, gorgeous person he used to be, when this shit happened. And now I’m back to struggling to help an angry, afraid, stressed child who is self-harming and whose self-esteem has just plummeted back down.
And work is shit - I’m in HE and the students, who are wonderful, are getting such a crap deal from this all. We try our best, but we are no substitute for a whole life.
Apologies for the rant! I promise not to be so wordy here in in!!!