@TheOrchidKiller, I know what you mean. I
I ventured briefly off this thread and have now fled back here to people who are genuinely supportive and sympathetic.
I am having yet another wobble caused by DD2 weeping that she wants everything back to normal and her life is ruined. And what could I say to that and how could I protect her from these feelings when the feelings are accurate? Children have been completely overlooked and their lives have been ruined.
And, as for me, if I can be selfish for a bit, I wish I could feel, just for a moment, a bit of glamour instead of the harassed rather frump like SAHM I am. I would like to look nice and have a pretty new dress and not feel ashamed every time I look in a mirror (which is as little as possible) because I don't like what I see.
DH, bless him, thinks I'm lovely, but I would still quite like to dress up and have him think that of me in a different way.
I am just so unhappy now and I don't know how to claw any happiness back.