Afternoon ,
People fighting in the shop this morning over masks. Someone asking someone to keep back, another one shouted "you're not even wearing a mask."
Kids in gps today. Don't know where to start on things I need to do. My patience with dd toddler is wearing thin. She wants attention, to do things. It's a lot at the moment. Holding on for news on nursery in Sept. it'll do everyone a world of good. She's smart, has her own mind and wants to explore but I'm so tired. You all know on here what it's like. Trying not to be so hard on myself but I was a shouty mum this morning. Wasn't good.
Haven't stopped talking with dm but I've stopped telling her how I feel about this shit show of a pandemic as it was just brushed off with, I should be grateful for what I have. Some people are a lot worse off than me.
Explained concerns with dh last night. He was in support of lockdown but has come round to my way of thinking.
I wonder how women of the UK feel. Are they all angry? I feel so unprotected and the fear of things shutting down again. Schools shutting, having to be with the kids 24/7 again is enough to give me a mini panic attack.
In other news , I've decided I want more than to be a sahm. I want a career, a life separate to my kids. My dh supports this and is wonderful with the kids.
I've given up on asking dementory friends if they want to hang out. They don't acknowledge the bad side of lockdown, just that they are glad that Wales has been cautious. I think they see me as an angry, entitled , spoilt brat with nothing to complain about as I'm sat at home doing nothing as I don't have a job. Both are child free. Not their fault it's just, they judge without knowing.
Hope everyone has a good day 