I feel so lonely past few weeks. I think on here is the only place where I feel I can be accepted.
My dh is lovely but he's scared of the virus so every trip out he's worried about kids touching surfaces and is jumpy. Makes trips out stressful. He thinks I don't give a shit but to be honest I'm too tired to care. I'm tired of worrying and trying to control a virus, wiping surfaces everywhere. I just haven't got the energy for it. It's no quality of life being scared all the time with twin toddlers.
My friends are also scared of the virus and think the Welsh government have done a great job. They're also concerned with increase in sexism and want to see even more government (policy). The last thing we need is more of this government 🤢. I'm tired of staying silent when they talk about these things so yesterday I said what I thought and it was end of conversation. I just felt so invalidated.
They don't have kids yet and don't seem to understand it's not great being alone with two toddlers through lockdown.
My mum as I said previously thinks I should count my blessings and not be so upset. But I am really upset with lockdown.
I don't know what else to say or do. Keeping my distance from everyone at the moment. There is no point saying anything as I feel like I'm the one in the one in the wrong.
People are comparing it to a world war but people helped each other during the war. They wanted to fight to save their country. I don't know. I don't believe this virus is as big of a threat as keeping apart and cutting services is.