I supported the initial lockdown, I felt relieved when it happened - but then I realised that we had basically collectively signed our own indefinite prison sentence
I didn't support lockdown initially, for exactly this reason.
I was genuinely freaked out by how easy it was to convince people to shut down their society.
But I allowed myself to be convinced that it would just be 3 weeks to let the NHS create more capacity.
I have never been more sorry to be right.
The initial reason for lockdown was met long ago - we are way past the peak, the NHS was never under any prolonged period of strain.
The problem is that us being locked in our houses is the default now.
Our freedom is something the government gets to grant, when it used to be a fundamental right we all took for granted.
I genuinely find this quite scary and it has been a source of anxiety for me since the start of lockdown.
I'm not usually an anxious person and I'm always been mentally robust and resilient. But this scares the living shit out of me and I don't think it's because I'm paranoid from being kept in captivity for so long (altough that is certainly affecting me), because I felt like this in March.
I'm not worried by illness and death. There's no point in worrying about stuff I can't control. I take reasonable steps to avoid getting cancer, but i know they are no guarantee. I know at some stage I'm going to die, and other than the odd night where I can't sleep, I don't bother dwelling on it.
But this is different. This isn't just a fact of life - a virus, a disease, an accident.
This is being done to me. My government are imprisoning me and taking away my fundamental rights, and those of my children. And they are doing it with the contrivance and delight of some of my fellow citizens.