I'm scared witless about the foothold the dementors have - it's "not the right time" apparently. We "can't open up yet"... the virus isn't going away - how long exactly are we meant to lock our children up for to soothe their socially engineered anxiety? They're human beings - not some kind of project you can put on the shelves for a few months and break out for a sunny day - and they are suffering no end - but if you comment ANYTHING on here at the moment - you get told it didn't happen or that you want people to die - and it's just bloody constant - and they're winning.
I can't take much more myself - it takes every inch of willpower to get out of bed on a morning to continue on watching my kids suffer - school won't take her back as vulnerable because the Head is one who has swallowed the unions' rhetoric 100% and sent a 3 page long letter that can only be described as a rant home tonight telling parents basically that their kids are going to be utterly miserable if they send them back when school reopens, so don't do it, but legally we have to take them, but don't do it - and I can't help her stop suffering. I've sent umpteen emails laying out just how mentally unwell this child is - school still refuse, and the class teacher sends a chatty email (think her hands are being tied by the head from the impression I get) of a couple of lines and thinks that it's enough to snap her out of it... then I get told to take her to the GP, which is closed physically and will just tell me I'm being an overanxious parent again and take her to the park (so we can walk past the padlocked playgrounds and rub her pain in her some more). I have tried everything to get her some help - I've done webinars to support your child, I've followed it all to the letter but I get like 5 minutes of my bubbly little girl again followed by this hollowed out unhappy creature.
She is FUCKING SEVEN YEARS OLD.
I just get verbally abused and kicked to shit by the older child who is angry, uncertain and lashing out at the only consistent thing she can get her hands on at the moment which is me.
Bare minimum we will have another 3 weeks of this before the first wave of schools go back... probably another 2-3 weeks before they let the next wave back - that's another month and a half of them suffering like this at least (that's using the "back at school for a month" comment from the guidance). I don't think I can keep them going that much longer. I think even playgrounds weren't even down until about 4th July from what I read - that's the bit that feels really really spiteful - you can go to school if you're in these year groups - but the rest of you - fuck off and we're going to leave the playground padlocked up so you can't even go on the swings and forget how utterly shit it all feels for you - just go home and continue hurting... and I bet at that point all the learning support, the bitesize, the free learning sites and PE with Joe will stop as well so the kids will lose any routine they even have.
I cannot do this anymore - I'm sick of going to bed to lie awake wanting to end it all for me and my family. I'm sick of waking up to realise it's still going and there's another day of being stuck inside listening to the fucking internet arsefuckingmoroncockwombletwits crow and bully, and being too scared to go out much and be seen smiling in case you encounter one in the wild. I'm sick of dreading the fucking Thursday mandatory clapping and social media evaluation shitstorm afterwards. I'm sick of TV shows with smug fuckwit presenters stood artificially 200cm apart wittering on about how this street in Scunthorpe are going to stand at the end of their drives and engage in suitably "cheery but not showing any sign of overt enjoyment because that will piss someone off" conversation.
Sorry - that's a bit of an outpouring but I can't take seeing my kids suffer like this anymore and I can't fix it.