Why are you awake?

[JustStayHome]

Just that really.

Its 5.40am on Easter Saturday (If that's even a thing)

I'm currently shielding, so I'm waiting for a shop to go online at 6am so i can order some things i need...

I should of gone to sleep, and set my alarm for 6 but just kind of accidentally stayed awake.

What's everyone up to?

@WellThisisabitWeird

Wow... That's some news!

Maybe make your own thread , for some better answers / more help but feel free to talk here tooo 💐🍪☕

@TooManyButtons you're no fraud😱 can't believe you think it, 😱

I am in awe of the NHS staff acually going into work each day. I really can't say that I would be happy or prepared to leave my family and face this head on.

❤️

@Bananasandchocolatecustard

Hope you are feeling better today.
Cool name btw...
Loved chocolate custard at school with chocolate cake... Mmmm. Memories

@CaffeineInfusion I think every single member of my household is in a different sleep pattern. I don’t think I believe in cicardian rhythms any more. Not in the age of electric lights. It is amazing how quickly everything slides when work and school stop.

Also stress causing insomnia, I suppose, and people sitting up late to do grocery shopping online in the middle of the night.

The wind has woken me I think, the climbing rose outside the window is tapping on the glass. I’ve made a cup of coffee and am wide awake so probably no more sleep tonight 😡
Will have my coffee then go down and do some crochet I think, little point in just lying here awake 😀

@JustStayHome it's more than a little blustery here too. I have just been out in the garden to tidy up my furniture, cushions, table cloth. Basically everything I couldn't be bothered to do earlier.

I keep having visions of a future world similar to the film Wall E. 😁

Maybe make your own thread , for some better answers / more help but feel free to talk here tooo 💐🍪 ☕️

Thanks. I might need a day or two before I have anything else coherent to say about it. A lot of memories to go back over. I thought he was cheating with women.

I have a feeling this lockdown is throwing up a lot of left field issues for a lot of people.

The thing is, I am tired. My eyes are stinging. I can't read. Netflix is boring the life out of me. I am feeling lonely and I am sick of tidying up!!

I am though, grateful to have a secure home, a garden, a bit of money saved, family nearby, even if I can't see them now. And I have not yet had any first hand dealings with the virus. Though that may change as the numbers increase.

A month ago, life was so different. I don't thi k I will ever complain about anything again.

@WellThisisabitWeird
Yep, been there, done that...

@Strawberrycreamsundae
Wish i could crochet... Or had any talent actually.... I just paint rocks and im not very good at it :)

@CaffeineInfusion
I'm a scaredy cat and couldnt go outside in the wind 😱😂

@WellThisisabitWeird

Its alot to take on.

Has he said his had affairs?

@CaffeineInfusion

I go onto Netflix and save things to my list and hardly ever watch anything.

I did enjoy "Grace & Frankie" though.
Its a series and is a long one, but that was very good

@WellThisisabitWeird Fucking hell. What a nightmare! Been there with cheating DH and it’s just so awful. Not gay cheating though, much more cliched. Can he leave just now? I think that separating would be acceptable even in lockdown in these circumstances.

And I’m awake cos everything seems awful in dead of night and I am really struggling with lockdown and other issues.

@Mascotte

Sorry your struggling 💐

Woken up by the wind and hoping that the gazebo doesn't end up in next door's tree again...

@WellThisisabitWeird I've just seen your post. I feel for you. I remember well when my ex left, I was up many nights posting on anonymous forums. I needed to talk and it was the only way I could at the time.

I hope things work out for you.

(word to the wise, copy or take a photo of every Important document and bank statements. Before they go awol. You'll need them at some point)

@Rockbird
Such a change in the weather
I got a little burnt this morning.

Hope you don't wake up to n empty garden

No he just says he’s gay and hasn’t acted on it but he has crushes on male friends and wants to have girly friendships with women. I found some texts to female colleagues a couple of times.

I think I do believe him. The tone of the texts seemed flirtatious to me at the time, but now the other explanation does fit better and other things make sense too.

Crazy. We have been together ten years.

I hate the word “girly” and he has said it so many times tonight. I am just waffling now.

(word to the wise, copy or take a photo of every Important document and bank statements. Before they go awol. You'll need them at some point)

Thanks. I will. I need to make lists tomorrow and try to get my head together.

He has been furloughed. I have fallen between the stools and do not qualify for any of the schemes. I am wondering about the timing of this.

@WellThisisabitWeird
That's tough
In the current climate its alot harder.
Take your time and work out what you want to do, keep talking.
Try and work it out together, 10 years is a long time

Thanks @JustStayHome .

Have an essay to write before 4 year old Wales up.

@lookingformybrain

Oh wow..
Good luck, Your definitely going to be looking for your brain by lunch time !

@WellThisisabitWeird oh gosh, what a shock for you The same thing happened to my cousin, it was such a tough time for her but she's happy in a healthy relationship now. You'll have a lot to process, but take your time and, cliched as it sounds, get all your ducks in a row.

I'm up because I'm not at work as I'm furloughed and like @CaffeineInfusion I've got a DS with a weird sleep schedule and now it's rubbing off on me. In normal times when I'm working I have to suppress my night owl tendencies so I can force myself into work on time, but that's all gone to pot now. Anyway, I'm not tired but I'm going to try going to bed. No doubt morning person DH will try to get me up in a few hours. Good luck with that!

Not gay cheating though, much more cliched. Can he leave just now? I think that separating would be acceptable even in lockdown in these circumstances.

This is the thing @mascotte . He says he has not had gay affairs, just crushes, but that is the part of it I’m not sure I believe. He has lied so much.

I would like him gone quickly and time alone to think but that would mean spending savings to rent him a self contained flat and that seems imprudent in these economic circumstances. My work has dried up but I do not qualify for furlough.

Thanks for the 4am moral support, everyone. I will stop merailing now and try to sleep. I hope you all get some rest as well.

@DramaAlpaca Hope your not woken to early

@WellThisisabitWeird Hope you manage abit of sleep