Shocking and sad news.
She always seemed a troubled soul - and living life in the media is a risk and challenge for anyone. But women are especially judged and trolled online.
To me there was a sense of slight desperation to the need to be the beautiful, partying hard, flirty, always having a boyfriend girl about town. On Kathy Burke's series CF said that she was happy being single - but how she lived her life it didn't quite look like that. But I, like any of us, know nothing of her real inner life or who she really was.
She was accused of a serious crime - lamping someone whilst they slept. A dangerous and violent crime. And we wouldn't be forgiving of a male celebrity who was similarly charged. To be accused of something like that would necessarily lead to a huge amount of self loathing and regret. And if true, such behaviour doesn't come out of nowhere. It reflects deeper problems. She wasn't yet found guilty in a court of law and no doubt some will read into her death an assumption of her guilt. Would her reputation ever have recovered - who's to know? Maybe if she had lost her career and re-built her life doing something more worthwhile she might have found a different happier way to live.
So I am sad. But reflective. We will never really know what went on and how much of her troubles came from within and how much from outside ( the media) and whether its ever going to be our preference for our daughters to choose a life in the public eye based on the approval of social media and our attractiveness.