Crying at home because police made me realise I am not English

[MillyAndFriends]

I am an intelligent, educated, powerful woman who loved UK. It is the only place where hindus and muslims engage on an equal footing ( I say this because when I was in Bangladesh my gran would not visit her muslim neighbours but that is the norm) I loved the UK, but today I cried.

I am worthless, I am nobody, I don't matter...I am ASIAN, I am BLACK.
Despite paying my taxes and contributing to society I am SHIT, I am worthless, I am nothing (Gandhi fought to make us equal but he failed.....)

I was stood waiting outside a club, I had ordered a cab and I was going to wait outside for my Addision Lee.
I am 7 1/2 stome (obviously a fat arse)
On a pavement in London ( where people must obviously be smaller than me)
When I was asked to move away from the club because I was blocking the way

Oops being 7 1/2 stone I took up all the space

Despite explaining that I was waiting for a cab, I was asked to move to the corner of the road.

I explained that I was waiting for a cab.
The chap became stroppy stating I should go (not very nicely).
As I had explained to him the cab was coming to the place.
He got cross.
Trying to use my brain (why did I bother!) I explained that legally I was entitled to stand where I was ( I couldn't understand what was going on..I didn't like the way he had spoken to me,,,I even explained how much I had spent in the club when the person was being silly- £300+!)

They the THREATENED TO CALL THE POLICE

i SAID GO ON THEN ...Really I thought the POLICE have better things to do!!! Don't they???

In the meantime someone was taking a film....I don't know why..

The police turned up, and I stupidly thought they would listen

They didn't ...I was in the wrong

For some reason someone who was 7 1/2 stone was preventing people walking past the pavement. Due to this, people were crossing on to the road, and I was causing a nuisance.
I asked the police men, are you taking the Micheal and they said NO! I even said " listen to what you are saying re: someone who is 7 1/2 stone (okay I said 6) who is taking up ALL of the pavement....

I am so sorry because I am unable to articulate how SHIT they made me feel.
Bullied, Bullied, Bullied RACIST SHITS.
I AM NOT that time of person to make such comments but I HATE YOU for making me say this.
Even when I rationised with them and explained I have friends who are policemen and I understood the challenges they were going through they were horrible.

I even said to them, do you really want to do this.
Even when they threatened to arrest me, I asked why what is the basis (I spouted some meaningless shit..re: human rights I learnt from uni, and even explained I have a friend who is a policeman, and that I understood their concern)

Shit, shit, shit,
(an idiot was filiming me but I am not sure why as I was rationalised - me thinks)

Best thing was that this lady from the club came out and I explained that you don't own the pavement, I was just waiting for my addision lee. She suggested it would be nice if I stood at the corner and I asked why?

I defended myself,

Why can't I wait on that pavement, you don't own it ...the police didn't agree with me ( I am repeating myself I know because this is SHIT and I am upset!)

And now I am crying, I thought I was English. I even defended England to a Scottish man tonight

I have described the above very nicely but all I know is thanks to tonight I'm NOT English, and I don't want my family to go through the RACIST shit I had to go through to night (the above is a very polite version of stuff...but I cried all the way home when I realised some SHIT ARSE has made be lose my Identity, and that the police who I THOUGT stood up for you would do...

But now I have to accept what my dad said to me, you may think your English BUT don't forget you're BROWN.
Thank you for proving my dad right!

Give us the verbatim run down of what was said that was racist?

No, milly, it is only the sharing of a non mumsnet blog (your post of 08.20 this morning) which is against the rules (see the note at the top of the page), nothing else. Unless you are part of the mumsnet bloggers network - are you?

You could simply ask for that post of 08.20 am to be changed or deleted. As long as you then comply with the talk guidelines then you're free to talk about your experience.

Okay, have now read all the posts.

OP, you are playing the race card.

What on earth is wrong with you that you think it's acceptable to pull that out?

You had too much to drink, you argued with someone. They called the police. You screamed racism despite no evidence to the contrary.

Good God.

You could ask for the link to the blog to be removed and for the rest of the thread to be moved to another topic. I for one want to continue. I'm all ears.

(get me, acting all MNHQ )

You do realise, don't you, that a charge of racism against a police officer from a member of the public is likely to jeopardise their career?

Quite rightly, of course - if there has been racism .

My DH was once accused of racism by a woman who said that he visited phone boxes in the night and made anonymous phone calls calling her a Chinese pig etc (this after she had come to the station every day for a few days believing someone was stealing her laundry, or something). Despite the fact was manifestly impossible we still had a very anxious few days while we waited to see if he would be investigated.

You sound unhinged. And dangerous. And I'm actually quite angry.

I've reported this nonsense thread.

It doesn't actually contravene MN guidelines, apart from the bloglink, and I'm pissing all over the principles of free speech, but I am exercising my right of protest

I agree with jodie.

Basicly you were an obnoxious drunk. Your race is irrelevant.

Was the pavement very narrow? Is that why people were stepping on to the road? Perhaps you standing so near the nightclub entrance was a potential obstruction, in which case I believe the bouncer was allowed to ask you to move. Bouncers do call the police if they have problem customers that do not allow them to do their job as they are trained to do. We all know bouncers aren't always the sweetest people but I guess they're doing what is being asked of them to earn their money.

I think they were being sizeist

There is more emphasis on the 7 and a half stone than there is on the racist thing.

Maybe they were taller than the OP?

It's so fucking irresponsible to play the 'race card', not just because it spitefully risks the careers of hard working police officers but because crying wolf means thet when there is a genuine case of racism it risks getting lost among the crazy-ass fools.

I've reported it too, but only because I want to make sure it is not completely deleted. There could be a serious investigation of a decent PO on the back of this nonsense, and I think the OP's comments should stand just as they are. They might be needed.

is it against the rules of mn to post blog links now?

Yes, that's a fair point, YourMaj.

Haitch I thought you could only post MN-reg'd blogs? Dunno, though...

she is part of the mn bloggers network, but i will go nuts if hq are now insisting that we can't link to bloggers outwith it. that would be pure shite and not in the spirit of things roun' here.

You said 'outwith'! I've not heard that since my Civil Service days!

I don't think we are not allowed to link to blogs in other topics, or even in this one (if we are MN bloggers) I just think she may have contravened rules by promoting her own blog on the MN Bloggers topic of she is not herself an MN blogger. I am sure if this thread had been in caht or anywhere else it would be no problem to link her own blog.

Exactly the same thing happened to me many years ago. Only difference was I white and the bouncers was black. Thankfully I realised I was being a pissed arse and moved on before police had to be called. But with your reasoning I should have been able to claim rascism. Actually, I think we all should take responsibilty for our own actions and how we interpret others. And please dont tell me that I dont know what it is like to be racially abused because I do (another thread entirely).

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Maybe you shouldn't have had any of 'BIG G's fairy dust, OP?

(have you seen that 'blog'??)

she is an mn blogger, but someone please tell me that mn hasn't disappeared up its own arse and is now telling us who and what we can link to?

I don't understand why the OP is being given a hard time.

Is she not allowed to wait on a public highway without being assaulted by a police officer (shoving is assault). And, I am sure that if she said she spent £300 in a club, she did. It is not at all hard to do in some Central London clubs.

Is she playing the "race card". None of us were there so we don't know. In any event, she was bullied and harrassed. She was clearly not that drunk, either, given her OP. It is a bit rambling but kind of coherent and not something you could write if completely hammered.

I have now read this three times and cannot for the life of me work out what the op is on about

"It sounds like an open and shut case of 'slightly drunk and arsey woman deciding to play the race card' if you ask me. "

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