Thanks for this thread OP, it's probably the most important/clarifying thread I've ever read on MN. So much chimes with how I feel as well, and it's helping to crystalise my thoughts on politics, which have been very inchoate and confused over the past few years.
I've always been a leftie, though of the green hue, rather than the traditional workers' socialism (never voted Labour). Grew more left-wing post 2010 when the government's austerity policies on things like the bedroom tax, selling off the NHS and food banks kicked in. Felt I was a trans-ally, followed pages like EF on FB
, yet I also followed DGR and read Derrick Jensen for the environmental side... I couldn't understand why they were so "transphobic". Things like Michigan Women's Music Festival and Vancouver Rape Relief getting sued (c. 2014) started stirring some nuance in me. Then Owen Jones calling out "homophobia" when asked if he'd go down on a transman, after stating that lesbians be obliged to include transwomen in their dating pools peaked me. Sauce for the goose/sauce for the gander etc.
Then Cologne happened and it seismically changed the political landscape in my head. News stories coming out about the grooming gangs in Rotherham. Reading about the sudden large rise in rapes in Sweden in the Almost Nearly Perfect People, that I read as a massive Scandi-phile. Along with all the other batshittery on the left... anti-semitism, the Goldsmiths' Gulags, Sisters Uncut defending violent TRAs, Helen Steel/Maria Mac getting beaten up by the heavies. Yet staring down the barrel of the Right... Cameron's Brexit, austerity, Trump, privatisation etc.
Really struggling to see how my views fit into the wider landscape. Still working out whether I've changed, or the world has and my compass point has remained the same. Totally disenfranchised either way. Watching Jordan Peterson videos on youtube is my guilty pleasure
... not because I agree with him at all, but because it's like going outdoors in the fresh mountain air. It gives me the space to think for myself, away from the rancid totalitarian group think of the "woke" left. I feel awake rather than woke. I left FB a couple of years ago, as I couldn't bear to either stick my head over the parapet at the lack of critical thinking or sit on my hands, the only way out of my double bind was to deactivate. I think I've come to a point where I can distill my political philosophy as "neither left nor right, but small". I see socialism and capitalism as two cheeks of the same arse (after Chesterton?). I try to live my philosophy now by living simply and minimalistically, but as Jensen says in Forget Shorter Showers, personal actions are never solutions to collective problems. I can never challenge the patriarchy and the triumph of gender ideology by staying at home.
Just feels that any expression of nuance away from the orthodox left gets you labelled as far right/bigot/xxxxx-phobic.