It's not good is it? I don't want to be but I am angry tbh.
I'm angry with the boys at school for calling me ugly.
I'm angry that there was an old boys network at school which seemed to think that I wasn't up to scratch as a female.
I'm angry with my ex for abusing me emotionally.
I'm angry with dds dad for abandoning me when pregnant.
I am angry with the patriarchy for demonising me as a single mum.
I think I am angry as I feel rejected by men in general and this somehow confirms that I am not up to scratch as a women. I know this isn't right.
I want to build better relations with me but how? Do I have to conform and fight the battle to stay young, thin, attractive and pleasing? Do I become one of the boys because apparently being myself isn't good enough.