Today was pretty rubbish. I weighed in, tantalisingly close to under 11 stone, then during the day I ate terribly and have now drunk wine. I’m ready to finish work, I’m tired, I’m frazzled, I have a million things to do. I will be having quite a lazy day tomorrow, most of my team are off work and therefore no one will be checking in on me so I’m going to do my ironing and packing between calls. one saving grace of drinking tonight was that was my wine for tomorrow so at least I won’t be drinking tomorrow!
just looking through my nutracheck graphs and despite my occasional weight losses, I have lost merely fractions of pounds overall since the beginning of April, as I yo-yo so wildly from high to low. I’m determined to not go completely bonkers on holiday. I know I can enjoy my holiday but keep it in check a bit, and I know I will feel better on my return if i don’t come home half a stone heavier. But I’m already worried about it, can you tell? Food is such a big thing for me, and lack of control over food causes me a lot of anguish. I am already planning my ‘home from
holiday’ diet. The holiday is self catered and uk so I can literally eat exactly what I eat at home.
anyway, tomorrow. I need to use up some fridge stuff so dinner will be chicken, pesto and veg. Lunch will be salad and tuna. I’ve drunk my wine so won’t be drinking, and I’m running with my friend at lunchtime. So tomorrow could be a really good day and could set me off on the right path for the week.
I’ll still be checking in, I need this group for my sanity!