Dalek, I've lost a pound shy of two stone in five weeks.
But I have that sort of body, I gain weight and lose it exceptionally quickly to start with. The first week of any diet I lose ten pounds! In this respect I appreciate I am a lucky cow! However the last ten pounds I have to go....oh so very slow it will be!
But the point is, it doesn't really matter. This is not a diet diet, this is about me learning to eat appropriately for ever and that's a blardy long time!
I realised you know that the reason I really pile on the weight in pregnancy is not because pregnancy makes you fat (much) but that once I know I'm pregnant I want to look pregnant so I eat too much and also a bit of me felt like 'I've held back and felt deprived for so long - unwarranted since I was overeating anyway but bear with me - now I shall have that cake and bugger the rest of you ner ner!' . Silly I know, but I actually think that's what I thought.
Now I look back at that and think I must have been slightly nuts! It's like the 'last one in the packet thing' you know where there is one biscuit left, or one square of chocolate and you just think 'well may as well eat it to save throwing it away/putting it in the cupboard'. That's crazy - we are not waste food disposal units but that's how I've treated my body in the past. I used to kid myself I was doing something good by not wasting food but given that food is fuel, I was actually wasting it by converting it into unneeded and unwanted fat.
Sweetheart I know what you mean about your body having an inbuilt calibrated weight that it tries to achieve. There is a lot of scientific evidence for this which suggests that most women are naturally around a size 12.
For me, if I go down to 10st I'm a size 8. I'm not particularly tall but I am particularly heavy for my size. I guess it's a muscle thing - I'm strong - the point is, I've been 9 stone and was a size 6 - and it didn't look good on me. I'm quite happy to get to 10st and stick there. Otherwise I'll have problems buying clothes.
I just did a journal page tonight which asked me to list all the bad things about being overweight and then all the good things about being slim and healthy for life and it was really enlightening because it's not till you've got a way down the road you realise all the bizarre things you've got going on in your brain which make no sense regarding weight but that you've just picked up over the years.
I remember eating the chocolate off chocolate biscuits (doesn't count right? ).
Or eating vast quantities of vegetables on weightwatchers because they had no points in (god I must have smelled BAD!)
Who else has a mad thing they used to do in the name of dieting?