Hi Talauro.
Well as Yoda says : Do or not do. There is no try!
I'm a year older than you, 3 inches taller and was a lot fatter, I suspect! .
The key is to find some sachets you can tolerate or even better actually like. I've posted some ideas on the Alizonne forum and hope you can work your way through a variety to get some that will be good for you. Then you will be able to decide that you can do this, and take it day by day and then week by week as you get the results you want.
I think it helps to do that thing from the Beck solution of writing a really really long list (60 or 70 items) of reasons why you want to be slim. state them in the positive - so if you have something like I hate not having energy to play with the kids, turn it into I love having energy to play with the kids and run down the beach with them on our summer hols ...or whatever floats your boat. Then when it's tough (and it will be tough at times), you read through them to stiffen yor resolve.
Also get real with yourself. What are the consequences if you don't sort your weight right now? What will happen longer term? It's pretty heavy but this is also good motivation.
Btw, tell your DH that you may get a PMT-ish -= as the hormones we laid down as we got fat are let out of the fat cells. I certianly got grumpy - and I'm post menopausal.
So Talauro - it's a choice. You don't have to look long term. In fact I couldn't imagine 8 months or so of Alizonne. As a serial failure at weight loss, I didn't really think I could do it. I wasn't a big drinker - but Ii certainly didn't think I'd be Ok about not drinking alcohol whilst shedding the weight.
So, like me, you just have to decide if you want to do this, and then what sachets and other ways of living will help you do it. Take it one step (one sachet) at a time. You don't have to believe it will work for you or indeed that you can do it - just act as if it will work and make a choice to do it each day, and even each time you have a choice. I can have anything I want to - but choose not to deviate from Alizonne. Somehow making it a choice rather than an imposition makes this doable.
I've made changes. I still cook roast chicken but every other week not every sunday. I don't have lots of cooked chicken or ham in the fridge - because it also calls to me. I only do enough roast veg for DH and my MIL. I do more portions for MIL and freeze them immediately so she can reheat at her home. I travel with a knife in a sheath and fennel, cucumber or other things so I can have my salads at lunchtime when on the road.
I don't have big pots of yogurt in the house as they are too tempting. I also had to ask DH to take the Xmas cake away, and to put some white choclate somewhere where I wouldn't find it. It's wierd as we have nuts/crisps/biscuits in the cupboards and white magnums in the freezer and I'm fine with those.
I think learning not to eat as I cook has been one of the toughest things. I may have a drink of water, a coffee or an Alizonne shake so I'm not hungry or tired when I cook or shop. At one stage, I only paid for petrol at the pump. Now I can walk past the chocolate/crisps/doughnuts etc and pay inside if I choose. somehow the choice muscle has got stronger.
I do feed my dearest and nearest more salads than before (DH always has mayonnaise!) and the same veg and /or veg curry I'm having. Sometimes Ill cook two things in parallell - so DH's aubergine curry (and now chicken curry) - has garlic, onions and sometimes coconut or almonds whilst mine is pure alizonne phase 1 or 2.
So find your triggers, don't cook or shop hungry and reorganise anything that can help you do Alizonne and then maintain those good healthier habits when you get to goal.
There's lots of good advice and thoughts on how to manage what to say to your friends/family/colleagues or what to do about wedding meals/black tie events etc on the Alizonne forum in the old threads. Most of the clinics and therapists are also great sources of info and support. Good luck with your weigh in - and see you there!
Good luck!
Ali