Morning all, happy Saturday.
i hit my calorie max yesterday, but I did eat well and had 2 glasses of wine. I’ve decided I’m going to put my scales away for a few weeks and just focus on my food. I’m going to quit slimming world as well, I don’t know why I’m putting myself through the torture of a public weigh in every week 🤷♀️
but, I’m not going to go off piste, in fact, far from it. I’m going to try for a really strict, careful week. We go away next weekend and it will be 4 days of hotel breakfasts, bakery lunches and pub dinners- so a gain is inevitable and I want to enjoy it not feel crap about it. A little boost before I go will help surely.
and then it will be June. I can’t believe how quickly this year is thundering past. After my weekend city break, it will be 8 weeks until my summer holiday and I am determined to have got past this plateau and got to final target by then, that’s only a pound off a week (plus whatever I gain in Edinburgh!).
but for now, let’s keep smashing May. Today I am hiking overnight, I have a few cereal bars and things like that and fruit in my pack for energy. To be honest I’m not especially worried about the walking, I’m worried about the tiredness overall as missing a nights sleep, and tomorrow I’m quite likely to be exhausted!
I need to plan my meals and do a proper shop for next week, I didn’t shop properly last week and our food has been a bit hit and miss as a result. My dd is away on holiday next week too which means lunchtime dog walking will fall to me every day so I will need to factor that in and probably prep my lunches in advance- great for planning and diet!
following the conversation with @poorpaws last Sunday, I did a lot of thinking. I bought a new notebook which I have committed is NOT to become an endless churn of promises and lists of food I have eaten and menus and shopping lists. Those things are preventing me from thinking about and dealing with the real issues and the difficult questions I need to ask myself about food. I sat with the book in front of me and just let it flow. It was really hard at first but I just jotted down notes about my food behaviours and things I do and how I feel. A lot of things about my childhood (my parents are both super weird with food) and above all a lot of things about how I look and how interlinked that is with food has come out. It’s something I want to do more thinking/writing about.