I'm starting saxenda this week.

[Saxendastarter]

I'm 33.

I'm 1m68 (5ft6)

I don't actually know what I weight and I got rid of my scales last year when getting on them just made me cry every time and I was just too depressed to even try and start loosing weight - I have ordered scales and will weight myself tomorrow.

However last time I weighed myself nearly a year ago I was 94kg (14st 11) and I know that I have gained since then.

I started gaining weight the beginning of covid, before 2019 my very highest weight had been 68kg ( 10st10) and my normal weight had been round 62kg for most of my adult life, so I have massively put on weight over these last four years. (Separation, depression, stress at work, and just general giving up).

My body is ruined by stretch-marks and my boobs that used to be great are now just swollen and saggy and stretch marked.

I'm really depressed by my weight and have decided its time to do something about it.

I have an office job and I'm not at all active.

I've tried to start making small changes, walking to the underground instead of getting the bus, getting the stairs up the one flight to my office instead of the lift but everything feels like a struggle and I have such awful thigh chaffing that walking is often excruciatingly painful.

I how I need to make a change because on top of it being so unhealthy being so over weight just makes me so upset. I've stopped going out as much and have just retreated into a shell.

I also have an appointment with a psychologist tomorrow.

I decided last month that enough is enough and I need to do something about it all.

I've started using face cream, and am finally having laser on my very very hairy thighs and - the point of this thread - I'm going to start saxenda tomorrow.

I thought I'd journal here.

My plateau has ended, scales are shifting again. Tomorrow is offiical weigh in though, so I'll see what occurs then. But I'm hoping for 2.5lb off this week 🤞 with a 12.5lb total loss in 3 weeks if I manage it!
I've had 2 non scale victories today too. First was a belt that was on the last notch the day I started Saxenda. It's now moved in one! The other is a dress that I tried on just before starting that was not looking great on me. I love the dress so O went and bought it on vinted in 2 sizes bigger. Today I'm back in the old dress and it looks great. So I suppose that was a waste of money on vinted, but oh well!!
Hope everyone else is having a good weekend and lovely weather!

Day 38

Breakfast
Black coffee
Home made pistachio cookies

Snack:
Black coffee
water

Lunch :
Entrecote frites
half a bottle of rosé
un trou normand ( apple sorbet and calvados )
water

Snack:
water
cofffee
pistachio cookie

Supper:
Half a bottle of rosé water

21km walked !!

And more pics of Giverny - we were slightly too early for the water Lillies but it was magnificent

Today is the day ! I’m on the roof at work and have just had coffee with the lady I met on the train down to Lyon.

Not a lot of people in the office today as Pentecôte Monday used to be a bank holiday, now everyone in France has to work for free for the day ( not get paid) to pay back the social debt from the 2003 heatwave crisis that killed old people.

And so I’m gonna go it! I’m telling my director I want out and see if he’s open to discussing terms.

I was 90kg on the scales this morning and that plus the absolute beauty of Giverny yesterday and the blue skies has filled me with strength to finally tell him.

Hello everybody! Great to see how everyone is doing. Finally have some time for this week.

I have lost 8lbs (3.5kg) so far which is ok this like to have lost more by now but I'm just plodding on.

Start 95.7
Now 92.2
Loss 3.5kg
Dose 1.8
Week 5 ish
NSV I can wear size 16 knickers again!
Swimming: love it! 3x a week and on a trim if plan for a mile

Feeling better and happier i think as a result of the swimming he

Hi all,

I posted a couple of weeks ago and then disappeared. I went away on hols for a week and did not take the Sax away with me, mainly because I couldn't work out a foolproof way of hiding it from my friends. They are both bigger than me and very "body-positive" in a way that involves sneering at thin people, so I've never felt comfortable mentioning how much I hate the weight I've gained over the last few years, or letting them know if I've been trying to eat healthily, etc.

So I've had a seven day break from Saxenda, and tbh it's been nice to not have that heavy feeling in my stomach and be able to go to the loo easily(!). I'm now feeling refreshed and ready to re-start with renewed vigour, I just hope it doesn't stop working for me as I've heard it has for others.

I put on 5.5lbs and my total loss is now just 6.5lbs over nine weeks which isn't great is it, and I'm kicking myself a bit because it's so expensive, but also trying to be kind to myself as it's been a stressful few weeks and I've not been well.

I've been examining my weightloss spreadsheets and my next milestones would be to lose 3lbs and get into the "overweight" (not "obese") bracket, 2lbs more would be 5% off my starting weight. It's seven weeks until my next big diary date (weekend in London), so I'm hoping to have lost 1 stone 7 in total by then.

I'm using the bank holiday today to do a food inventory, a meal plan and a food shop - since starting Sax I have been eating convenience foods such as tinned soup and cheese toasties, but the beautiful dishes in Greece have inspired me to make a bit more effort to get some actual nutrients rather than just eat less. I'm also inspired by those of you upping your steps and am going to make a conscious effort to move more.

@Saxendastarter I've been enjoying the insights into French life - I did an Erasmus year in Dijon about 20 years ago (eek) and it's so lovely to read about familiar things.

@Radish12 Welcome back. It seems no one thin or fat has the monopoly on body shaming. Please inspire us with your meal plan and dupes for greek classics! Greece sounds lovely.

Hi@cherrypied Great that you're enjoying swimming so much, I'm so jealous. And great that you're feeling happier, I think that is a key to success!

Just realized I've lost 6.8kg and that 6.8kg is over a stone (just). 1stone and .99 pounds.

First stone down!

Hi everyone! I posted a few weeks ago and have yet to begin. There is my fear of injecting ( but I will overcome this) and then DH and I booked a last minute trip away and I didn't want to travel with the Saxenda pens.

I'm starting on Sat once I get back from my holiday. Well done everyone, I'm enjoying reading the updates and I look forward to joining you on this journey once I get home.

Im glad this thread is running as I'd like some moral support.

Well done!!!!

Welcome back @BeagleMum1 - would you consider letting your husband jab you with you eyes shut - some nice music? I know you’re allready read that the needles really tiny but you’ll hardly feel a thing - less than I felt when this little thing bit me … I got her but evidence would suggest she got me first …

@BinnityBoo Ive just made vodka like you suggested - I have only ridiculously oversized le parfait though that I had to collect from the cellar and sterilise and get new joints for … I’ve done Rosemary and Rhubarb, Maple Syrup and Lapsong Souchong, Plain raspberry, Camomile and Lenin verbena.

Not Lenin Verbena vodka !!!!! I specifically avoided Russian vodka and got polish Żubrówka Biała because I couldn’t find any Ukrainian vodka ! So Lemon verbena and Camomile.

Day 40

Breakfast
Black coffee
Fruit tea

Lunch :
Cherry tomato’s with gnocchi and mozzarella
Very sweet cedrat lemonade
Coffee

Snack:
water
coffee

Supper:
Mojito
Home made ( by someone else) ice tea

Well Done @Saxendastarter on your first stone. Get a treat for the milestone. I hope your chat with your director is positive. I made Limoncello once- bloody lethal!

@cherrypied Great to hear your positivity too, well done on the loss.

Lovely to see people popping back into the thread, and hope everyone else is doing well.

I'm braving a swimsuit tonight, going to a twilight spa session. Frist time in a swimsuit in 2 years...decided to fake tan my pasty white legs- which may have been a mistake, now have orange ankles. Secretly hoping once I get over it, I may start swimming again.

Had a lovely weekend, didn't drink, but ate way too much at friends BBQ. Once the floodgates opened I was like the cookie monster.

@Glorfindels thanks! I’m still not brave enough for swimsuit but soon! Just had lunch with director … négociations are open - my starting point is one year severance pay and 6 months notice, his is 8 months severance pay and 8 months notice - 4/5 months to recruit and 3/4 months to hand over… not as bad as I thought so I’m sure we’ll find an understanding!

Well done OP! 8 months notice is madness unless he's prepared to pay the full 12 month severance you've asked for.
How would you feel about working another 2 months beyond what you were offering?

Legally I have to give him 4 months notice and he has to give me 2 months salary as severance.

His reasoning is he's being fair asking me to give him double time and offering 4 x severance....

I'm offering time and a half as notice and asking for 6 x severence

I won't get a years severance and he won't get 8 months notice - but we'll meet somewhere in the middle.

Day 41

Breakfast
Café creme
Fruit tea x 2
Café

Lunch :
Ricotta arugula truffle pizza ( didn’t finish it)
Half a tiramisu
Red wine

Snack:
Fruit tea
Haribo bonbons

Supper:
White wine spritz
Water
Massala dosa
2 vegetable samossa

Online yoga class ( I found a really lovely body positive class and signed up)

Ahhhh Im up above 90 again this morning at 90.4kg - I keep on looking at my graph and telling myself it’s normal but it’s upsetting me.
It’s 7 am here and I’m up and ready so I’m going to try and walk to the office and give my head a shake it’s 4km which city mapper is helpfully telling me is worth 3.2 frogs legs or .2 of kebab calorie wise… hopefully I can cancel out a bit of the dosa I was craving last night and stupidly ate even though I wasn’t hungry.

Hi OP. Try not to think about the increase - I know how hard it is, but you've got to trust the method and not worry about an occasional gain (my nemesis number has been 100kg for the past 3 years, keep telling myself I won't see a 3 figure weight again and then I gain for whatever reason and it tends to derail my efforts as I get so disheartened).
There's no way we could realistically maintain wholesale lifestyle changes long term if we don't allow ourselves the occasional something that we really crave, we just need to make sure the occasional doesn't become the regular (speaking to myself here really, just trying to make myself believe it!).
Today is a new day, you've got this. Enjoy your walk!

Oh and I had an off day yesterday, have been so good avoiding sweet things in an attempt to wean myself off sugar, but yesterday I caved an ate some chocolate left in the house from Easter - not mountains but enough to feel guilty. It's something I need to work on, allowing myself the odd day of not ideal eating and not feeling so guilty about it the next day.

Sorry! I forgot to update on weigh day Monday (Bank hol threw me off!). I was 16st 2, so 1.5lb loss in week 3 giving a total of 11.5lb in 3 weeks which I'm still very pleased with. I really want to get below that next stone bracket this week 🤞🤞🤞🤞.

Thanks @Everdecreasingcircumferences. Great loss @ThisMustBeMyDream.

I'm really feeling down today. Got to work at around 8.15 after walking but the air is so smudgy and polluted that I felt gross rather than refreshed.
Found out this morning that due to another massive fuck up my FPOTM has to go to Australia ( thought of you @BinnityBoo @OrderOfTheKookaburra ) for three whole weeks from next week. I then have to go to the US for two weeks at the beginning of July for work ...

I'm so fed up of picking up everybody's slack again and again and again. I'm so fed up of not being able to plan longterm or having plans squashed because of work shit taking precedence. We'd booked treehouse glamping in Fontainebleau so we could do a big forest walk the weekend after next and it's non reimbursable. We'd booked a weekend in Amsterdam to visit friends the weekend after ... This weekend I'm normally off to Brussels to see other friends but honestly given it'll be the last weekend when FPOTM and I can have some time together before the middle of July I want to spend some time with him. I just want to scream. I don't understand how people can fuck up so much at work and just be like "ah well Sax and FPOTM can probably sort it so no shits given". Anyway I left work after lunch because I was close to tears. All of the different teams just expect me to be so strong and have some sort of magic wand and fix everything the whole time.

I've had a whole packet of walnuts since I got home and have honestly been working and sending emails from my bed in the dark. At least I haven't had a drink yet. I'm going to really try and not drink this evening. Even if I end up gorging on food.

Also sort of wondering if I'm not just trauma bonded ( I know this is a big word and I'm sorry if it's inappropriate or offending to anyone) to FPOTM since we've been through so much work shit together.

Day 42

Breakfast
Water
Squash

Lunch :
Left over masala dosa
Squash

Snack:
Lots of walnuts
Water

Supper:
Water
Bolognese sauce from the freezer 2 small bowls (no pasta) burrata
2 Fromage Blanc with maple syrup and walnuts