Hi, I'm just posting ti see if anyone is similar to me. I've always been very lucky and naturally thin. Weight was never a concern although for my 20s and 30s I'll be honest my lifestyle was pretty grim and a lot of drug taking. Which definitely factored to my ability to stay slim. So fast forward I'm now 39 with two kids and all grown up, and hitting middle age. However I am obsessed with my weight and being skinny again. It's just so damn hard now I'm older. I personally just hate having weight on me. I'm a low maintenance person overall and don't wear much makeup or ever really glam etc. but my weight is such a big thing for me and I'm wondering if this is normal. I'm 9 stone currently which is taking a lot of effort both diet and exercise. But I want to be 8 stone, I'll settle with 8.5. I don't think it's possible as finding keeping to 9 stone hard and restricted enough. But why is this so important for me. I just feel my best skinny / thin and that is literally what makes me happy and confident. It's just frustrating as I can't seem to embrace aging and my body changing. Is anyone else like this?