Welcome everyone.
Lovely to see people on this thread.
I haven't had time to listen to it again but it is in my head more than it used to be.
The main thing for me at the moment while I'm silly busy is not mindlessly eating masses of crap as much as i would just because I'm bored/it's Christmas/I'm tired etc etc etc.
I am still having treats but definitely checking on whether I am really hungry or whether its boredom or expectation that i should have a treat as its Christmas. Haven't weighed myself again but my belt on my jeans is comfortably at its tightest hole.
I've also had a bit of a revelation about some foods. When i was counting calories i would avoid fruit a bit. Whereas now I am enjoying fruit again. It seems madness that I have denied myself something as healthy as fruit because its too calorific or sweet then done the inevitable binge on much more unhealthy sugary foods. I have had such a messed up attitude to food for years.
I had honeydew melon, a few dates with pistachios and some cashews in a nice bowl for breakfast yesterday. I enjoyed every bite until I was full then left a little bit. No stress over it.
I am also thinking much more about how food makes me feel. My dh bought vegan fruit pastilles the other night and i thought "oh good- i love fruit pastilles" and nothing is out of bounds so we sat and ate them mindlessly while watching a movie. And then I felt rubbish. Far too much sugar. Why on earth do i feel that I want to 'treat'
myself to feeling sick from eating too much processed sugar but would deny myself a healthy banana. Madness i tell ya!
I feel I'm being much more aware around food and how good , natural healthy foods make me feel well...good and healthy.
I'm going to 'treat' myself to a beautiful bowl of melon again soon. May add some sprinkled cinnamon on top and some berries. Now, that feels like a treat.
It also helps that I've stopped drinking. Not sitting of an evening ploughing through a bottle of wine means I'm also not ploughing through masses of snacks to go with the wine.
Happy Christmas Eve everyone. I also plan on being back here after Christmas with a bit if renewed vigour. I'll also have a bit more time and headspace.