Dancing through December

[Octopus37]

Well thought I would start the last thread of the year. Weighed in at 9st2.25 this month, my aim is to end December at a similar weight. I'm not realistically expecting to lose.

Well done Festive. 9st1.75 this morning ate too many carbs yesterday cause I was so cold. A day at a time

61kg this morning. I am very bloated and have a lot of pain waiting for my period to start.
My motivation is a remnant of my anorexic brain but it's a 5 mile walk up and down some big hills to take ds to and from school. I go the longer way if I feel the need to make up for eating more than I "should" and will detour around the estate. I was so annoyed to have forgotten my Fitbit yesterday morning so I'll go that way again to see how long it is. I don't drive and as I'm clinically extremely vulnerable then the bus would be emergency use only. Plus it's expensive. It's raining today which means it won't be the nicest walk but never mind. I quite like a walk in the rain really.

Well done fanny.

Despite only eating one meal yesterday, albeit a hearty portion of pasta bake, I've put on 0.8lbs Have to hope this is my period messing with me because I burned over 2300cals and even a hearty portion of pasta bake shouldn't offset that.

Just reminding myself I'm doing more of the right things eg moving more, eating less, 16:8 and more water and so the scales will have to acknowledge it at some point surely.

Today is the first day where ds is at school and I'm not and he's actually woken up in a good mood so plenty to celebrate.

It will be the weight of the pasta and will disappear by tomorrow.

This is the morning school run going the extended way on the way back but straight there in the way in. Time for a much needed cup of tea now and to tidy this mess I call home.

I'm so hungry!! Yogurt and muesli was never going to be enough if walking that much. Early lunch I think.

It's so tempting to read too much into day-to-day fluctuations but there are so many factors that affect our weight by the odd pound or two that you really need to just look at the trend line instead. Especially at period time. I'm sure I sometimes poo at least a pound, although I've not weighed myself before & after to check exactly how big it was.

Thanks for being here everyone. I'm back and feeling a bit better motivated today.

Glad you're motivated. I'm being motivated by seeing myself in the mirror trying on bags of clothes cleared out by my sister. She has lost weight. I was always the slim one historically.

Have managed an 18 he fasting window and am off to the gym this evening. Must drink more water! Might be another stodgy dinner tonight as it's cold and I want ds to try lasagna before his newfound "I'll try it" attitude to food disappears. Previously anything with mince was unacceptable. If I can get mince onto yes he eats it list that opens up lots more food options and what kind of pasta lover doesn't like lasagna?

Post school run stats. It was the short way there snd back this afternoon
Glad the motivation is catching!

Hi guys, haven't had a great few days food wise, too much choc. Meals all good. Had to self iso for two days so steps down but all OK now so 13k done today anyway. What can you do. Logging here for accountability and just to show up.
B: porridge on milk with blueberries and banana
S: skinny latte and choc chip cookie
L: large ratatouille portion, Strawberries and Greek yoghurt
D: chickpea curry with roast sweet potato.
Hit the water quota, hit the steps. Need to get better at using at least some willpower!

Goals for tomorrow: 3L water, 10k steps minimum, early night and no buying junk (this is the problem!) Good to see everyone well.

Hi heygirl. Don't sweat a few days off track abut. You're doing great.

The gym was really hard today for no apparent reason. Exercising at 140bpm felt as hard as at 150+ last week. Maybe I can blame that on my period too.

Eating really late because of a late gym session. Lasagna and cabbage and broccoli. Hopefully the gym offsets the stodge.

Sleep well lovely people.

Periods have a lot to answer for.
My day has consisted of 1538 calories of mince pies, a cherry Bakewell, and some Pringles. There was some healthy stuff in there too but I am Impressed with my food choices today. My steps and other stats are good though so I'm not beating myself up on the food. Must be healthier tomorrow. Sleep well everyone.

Periods definitely have a lot to answer for! I find it exercise much harder just before my period.

Fannygallops 1538 calories would be a lean day for me!

Good to see everyone doing well. I'm 3lbs down now after reining in the food and getting about 12K steps a day. So cold out there but even managed first few C25K runs as well. Legs were like lead but baby steps!

Food I've just tried to reduce portion sizes (sticking to bowls mainly) and more water. Going ok so far...although I have a virtual wine tasting thing for work tomorrow so that will be interesting!

Festive, that still isn't many cals Ate quite a lot yesterday, but over 16,000 steps, 9st1.75 this morning

14:3.6 today so 1.2lbs below yesterday. My graph this week is a yo-yo.

Busy day today so steps shouldn't be too low, back to the gym tomorrow.

Trying not to kick myself for regaining weight and just go from here.

Drink water everyone

It seems a lot because it's over my fairly arbitrary limit. It hit me thinking though that when I first really started losing weight at uni I restricted myself to 2000 a day by eating correct portion sizes. They seemed so tiny! I lost lots of weight and was very strict about it. But then I started doing week long fasts and literally ate nothing. I survived on Diet Coke and options hot chocolate. The longest I did was 10 days. I don't know how I did it now. My lowest weight was 8st 1lb in those days but I was not well. I go back to that mentality so quickly so need to be very careful.
60.5kg this morning. I haven't pooped in days so maybe I'll hit 60 by the weekend.
Have a good day everyone!

Thanks for the water reminder!! Octopus you have really upped your steps lately I think?
B: porridge on milk with banana and blueberries
L: ratatouille
D: chickpea curry
Goals as decided yesterday

Thanks Honeybadger for your reassurance, it's far from just a few days off but look, I'll keep trying, keep up the basic goals and good sleep and meals are good. That's all I can commit to and will just keep trying. Too much introspection lately not helping my mindset but I'll keep going. Have a good day all.

Morning everyone. Hugs all round today. Everyone, what we're doing is HARD and you're all doing GREAT.

Dangermouse well done on the portions and on the couch-to-5k runs. My husband did some of them over the summer but stopped when it was dark in the evenings.

Well done for showing up HeyGirl. HoneyBadger is right: a few days here and there doesn't mean much. It's the long-term pattern that does it.

HoneyBadger well done on the downward curve.

FestiveFannyGallops I want to give past you, and all other young people going through this, a big hug. It's so sad that our crazy brains do these things to ourselves.

Yeah you know I've just been through similar with mindset not being there. I found, as you say, putting the basics back in and being ok with baby steps helped whereas thinking I should be able to go all in to where I was at before just set me up to keep feeling I'd failed.

I'm sad I've regained weight but also aware it's not in me to commit to anything even vaguely extreme at the minute. Send yourself lots of compassion

Hi all,

Lovely to catch up on everyone's updates. You're so right - it is hard doing what we're doing, whether that's trying to lose, or trying not to gain what's already lost!

I'm trying hard to not undo all my hard work. Still managing to maintain at 9st11 / 9st12. Chocolate is creeping in but I'm being mindful with meals. Exercise is a distant memory but I'm finding it hard with a very busy work schedule. Worded 12 hours Monday and 11 ours yesterday 😩 Christmas is a very busy time for my job.

I have a beef stew already made for dinner which I'm hoping will be filling, comforting and healthy.

Keep going everyone 🎄

Hi guys, is it ok to join please? I'm trying to lose a bit of weight. I've lost 2kg in two weeks, taking my bmi from 26 to 25. Aiming to lose another 4kg.......although a little worried Christmas may throw me of course!! I'm doing a loose version of 16:8 and logging on my fitness pal. Trying to stick to 1500 calories or less most days. Feeling inspired reading a few of your posts 😊

Welcome Glitterball. Great work so far! Christmas is gonna happen isn't it, let's just accept that and live with it! I liked an analogy I heard somewhere that we should look at our diets like we do brushing our teeth. If we don't clean our teeth one night or something, we don't feel ashamed and give up on brushing our teeth. We just brush our teeth again.

Ah crap. I was meant to have chickpea curry when the others had mac and cheese but I forgot and ate a ton of it with another ton of broccoli and peas at least! Will have to head out in the dark and rain to get the steps in