Thanks for loveliness
. The situation is not a surprise exactly, but I thought it was going to be the end of the line last week so that was mega trauma on top of the low level stress that's been around for a while (stress levels go up and down but a base layer of worry and anxiety has been there constantly for a while).
Surprisingly I am sleeping well, but am constantly exhausted. It's taking all my energy just to get through each day and get the things done that need doing, so I'm impressed with myself if I manage a run or something. I'm pretty sure that if life throws me another curveball right now I'd be completely floored but can currently cope and am keeping it together.
As I said, I'm readjusting to a new normal and will slowly reintegrate the things that are more about looking after me over time. For example, I'm desperate to go for a swim but can't quite make it happen and I've missed a couple of yoga classes that I know would help, but favoured going to bed instead. I'm forgiving myself when I eat badly but also know I would feel better if I didn't, but am finding a middle ground. What I am not doing is punishing myself for not exercising or not eating as well as I could.
I am pleased with myself right now because I have not done any 4pm panic/comfort eating so I am going to be hungry at dinner time. And I am very much looking forward to it! I haven't over eaten today but if chocolate happens later I am not going to stress about it.