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CheesyFeet · 28/01/2007 10:43

That could be me talking, it really could. I used to buy a packet of cakes every morning on my way to work and eat them all in the car before I got there.

I honestly believe that binging is a form of self harm and is completely tied up with your sense of self worth.

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WigWamBam · 28/01/2007 11:13

Absolutely. I'd go as far as to say most eating problems are tied up with self-esteem issues.

I've always seen it as a form of self-medicating, but it is a form of self-harm too, isn't it - although I think it takes someone with an eating problem to recognise it as such.

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EeyoreIsFab · 28/01/2007 15:52

Hi All & Welcome Back/ Congratulations to Sue .

Time seems to be passing by so fast at the moment & I haven't had a chance to read all the messages, but I hope everyone's had a good weekend.

My Willpower finally dissolved on Friday & I ended up eating 11 'pink & whites' . Trying not to beat myself up about it & 'look ahead' but it's SO HARD.

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WigWamBam · 28/01/2007 15:57

"Pink and whites"? Not sure what they are, to be honest.

If they're marshmallows then that's not too bad; if they're big slabs of chocolate then that's a different question (and the other question would be ... "where's mone?"!

In either case, don't beat yourself up - it's done, it's dusted, forgive yourself if you feel you need to, then move on.

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EeyoreIsFab · 28/01/2007 16:10

They're marshmallows in wafers - only 50cals each & the idea was that they would make a good treat - one or two a day, not 11!

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WigWamBam · 28/01/2007 16:15

Oh yes - I know the ones you mean.

11 ... you must have had some really strong sugar cravings there

Same applies though - don't beat yourself up. It's done now, forgive yourself if you think you need to and get back onto the straight and narrow again. So you fell off the wagon ... jump right back on again.

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EeyoreIsFab · 28/01/2007 20:32

Thanks WWB - that's just the boost I needed!

littlemisssensible · 29/01/2007 10:32

Hi Guys,

Just checking in!

We're on the downward slope now and as usual everything has gone manic!!!! [screaming mad emoticon!]

I'm manically eating everything in sight whilst proccessing returns and last minute panics as if my life depended on it! (which in fact my career does!!! )

I think I'm keeping the eating thing under control by make sure everything in sight is 'good' food like fruit, energy boosting cereal bars etc......unfortuanetly the odd jam covered muffin or choccy biccy keeps sneaking in there!

Oh well 3 days and counting!

agalch · 29/01/2007 11:38

Morning girls

Thanks everyone (esp Cheesyfeet and WWB)

I know it must seem like i'm being silly over the 1.5lbs and my "wee binge".I too used to have huge binges.

I used to buy the family size revels and 2/3x snickers flapjacks and secretly scoff whilst on way yo ds's school then have "snack" with them after school.

I could be back doing that soooo easily.But have had an ok weekend,ate reasonably well and no wine so back to feeling ok again.

Off to decide what to have for lunch,i'm starving lol
xx

CheesyFeet · 29/01/2007 20:48

No wine really helps keep the weight off I find - but it's one of the hardest things to give up! I can't stop once the bottle is open and dh isn't really keen on it so I end up polishing a bottle off by myself in pretty short order...then I get the munchies...

Since I started RC 3 weeks ago I have had one double V&C and one of those little bottles of wine you can buy with about a teaspoon's worth in it.

Weigh in tomorrow, and even though I've been quite good I don't think I've lost much. AF is due though so may well be retaining water.

agalch · 30/01/2007 07:12

Cheesyfeet,i am a wineaholic too.luckily my dp does like it so if we open a bottle we always share it.Had 1 glass last night,i figure you have to have the odd treat or else you'd be miserable eh?

WWB i did measure out 1.5lbs of potatoes and did the tins thing too. Do you know i had never thought of it that way.Thanks for the encouragement.I was getting a bit silly and slightly obsessed i think.I always get too involved and always feel i have to be perfect at things (was the same when giving up smoking)but need to give myself a break.

suejonezisdanielsmummy · 30/01/2007 11:33

blimey things drop off "my threads" quickly these days - had to go searching for you!

I don;t drink and I must say it does make the diet easier for two reasons - don;t consume the extra calories in alcohol so can spend it all on food and I walways find that drinking lowers my resistance to food anyway. Am hoping to get to a pair of scales soon.. so can start with you lot again next week.

JackieNo · 30/01/2007 14:38

I hardly drink at all these days - am too much of a lightweight, and as DH doesn't, if I open a bottle of wine, it can sit in the fridge for ages, then I decide it's been there too long and pour most of it away. And I hate doing that, so I just don't open the wine in the first place. If only I was like that with chocolate.

justamum · 30/01/2007 22:03

I wish I could be like that with chocolate too jackie! How are you doing Sue, is Daniel settling in ok? Are the cats taking to him any better, one of mine loves the DCs but my big ginger hates them and won't even come in the house if he can see DS.
Whats this about babyfood packets? are you not torturing yourself about providing fresh, organic, seasonal homecooked food like all good mumsnetters, my dcs exist almost exclusively on quinoa these days!!!!
It was DS's 3rd birthday on Sunday so we were "at home to visitors" which was great fun as my mum & stepdad arrived at the same time as my dad who has been threatening to kill sd for years! Luckily they were all quite amicable but it was tense for a while. Needless to say plenty of party food was consumed!

suejonezisdanielsmummy · 30/01/2007 22:09

Daniel is currently existing on a diet of Hipp organic jars and weetabix! I've been too jetlagged to make him anything else and it's very similar to what I was feeding him in Kaz so the fewer changes the better at the moment. However today I branched out into a few boiled new potatoes and a buttered muffin (one eighth for him seven eighth's for me!).

Can't do much else at the moment as my fridge freezer packed in whilst I was away and am waiting for them to deliver the new one (on Thursday) so don't have anywhere to keep the food cool or freeze anything.

I cook most of my own food from fresh these days so plan to just freeze him some of mine as I don;t use salt in cooking.

Biggest problem for my weight is buying butter for him - I love it. Can easily resisit everything else but finding it hard not to slather butter on everything of mine. He may well have to go without butter poor little mite - deprived already!

suejonezisdanielsmummy · 30/01/2007 22:11

The cats - he just loves them - his little face lighs up every time he sees one of them. Dylan is turning out to be not too bad with him (though generally keeps out of arms reach) Lola will only go through the room at a run if Daniel is there!

MrsJohnCusack · 30/01/2007 22:26

oh nice to hear about Daniel Sue. And the cats. I bet he loves them. I think DD really misses them, we must get some soon (DH still in mourning)

mmm - wine. am hoping that I might be able to continue the not drinking once the baby is here. But I do love wine, and I do dream of gin and tonic....

I am too fed up to post on here much. Why bother with the newborn when DD is up at some point every night and I have to sit in her room crippling myself (SPD doesn't go with sitting on the floor) or she screams blue murder. I am so knackered and all I do half the time is cry. What a bloody waste of my last few weeks of freedom. But I can't hope I have the baby early as noone to look after DD for a couple of weeks. Grrrrrrr

justamum · 30/01/2007 22:30

Only joking Sue, I used to give DS jars quite regularly. DD, to my frustration will not touch anything out of a jar unless it is the most expensive organic ones so I have no choice but to give her what we eat, but sometimes when I am washing the blender or masher for the umpteenth time I wish I could just open a jar. I trid to give them a shepherds pie ready meal the other day when we were really late and both of them turned their noses up. I was quite proud!

suejonezisdanielsmummy · 30/01/2007 22:32

Poor you - I sympathise with the crying all the time - that was me for the last few weeks in Kaz! Can't sugest anything practical I'm afraid.

Fingers crossed Daniel will sleep through the night for the first time since we've been home tonight, he seems much more settled. I am a bad mummy and have been bringing him into my bed when he wakes up (mainly because I'm too tired to stand by his cot going "sh sh sh sh" patting his back for too long). But I know I will have to be tougher eventually. He is now sleeping and napping in his cot rather than in my bed then being transferred so that an improvement in only a week..

suejonezisdanielsmummy · 30/01/2007 22:35

I'm not worried Justamum - its jars or nothing at the moment. I'm having to learn everything you all learnt with newborns but with a wriggling opinionated 1 year old - so worrying about what food he's getting (provided its healthy and plentiful) is the last of my worries.

Ever tried strapping a one year old into a pushchair who's never been anywhere near one before.....

MrsJohnCusack · 30/01/2007 22:37

I'm useless at any patting and shhhing, am totally out of patience with the poor child (and besides I don't think it works anymore. I just have to be in the room and I CANNOT LEAVE). And I'd bring her in with me if I thought there was any chance of either of us sleeping! Def not bad mummy. It sounds like you are doing very well.

justamum · 30/01/2007 23:04

Blimey, I never thought of that one Sue. I bet he wonders what the hell you are trying to do to him. Motherhood is a steep and constant learning curve isn't it! Just as soon as you think you have one thing cracked a whole new set of issues rear their ugly heads.
Mrs JC, don't cry Could you get a chair for DD'S room? Do you think she is getting night frights? DS used to do this until we got him this little musical star, it plays for 10mins and projects pictures onto the ceiling, he loves it and if he wakes in the night he turns it on and gets himself back to sleep, I quite often hear the star in the middle of the night and he hardly ever disturbs us anymore. Just a suggestion. I felt just the same before DD was born

MrsJohnCusack · 31/01/2007 06:56

thanks for the suggestion re the star justamum. I will look into it, because the night light isn't working. basically I think she knows there's something up and so is generally unsettled. And I do think it's night frights or dreams. Wouldn't be so bad but today am in agony from the bloody SPD and just so knackered and fed up. Whinge, whinge, whinge

You see Sue, that's exactly the sort of thing one wouldn't think of at all re. the pushchair! Poor old Daniel - I'm sure he'll like the idea once he realises that going in the pushchair means Exciting Outings. (DD has the screaming habdabs when we put her back in hers when out and about, but once I've wrestled her in she does calm down...it's getting harder to do though). I hope you had a better night last night.

I also hope everyone is doing OK. It is v.hard trying to eat sensibly in a miserable cold January. (do not be jealous of me though, we are having a totally pants summer so far)

and WWB, LOVE the picture of DD patting the penguin. what a great thing to do. We have a rather cool penguin experience here, further down the South Island, where you watch them come home from a hard day at the office (i.e. on the sea). They're great

JackieNo · 31/01/2007 10:28

MrsJohnCusack - you poor thing. I do hope you can find something to help her get herself back to sleep. Have you tried (oh not not another suggestion - feel free to tell me to b$gg$r off) the gradual withdrawal method, I think it's called, where you start of doing whatever you're doing atm, then you gradually, over the course of a few days, react less, and less, and move first to sitting near her, then to sitting a bit further away from her, then to near the door, etc etc, till eventually you're outside the door, and FREE. Found a thread here on it.

Sue - mine lived on a lot of jars too, but are fine now- it's definitely a case of taking things gently for you and Daniel, and not making any huge changes. By the sounds of it you're going about it just right. Glad he likes the cats.

suejonezisdanielsmummy · 31/01/2007 11:39

Unusually he woke at 12.30 last night (I had gone to sleep and thought it was about 4am - you know that kind of deep sleep). Then having eventually got him back to sleep he slept until 8am! I had to go in and check that he was still breathing at 7.15am!

He is teething and has a mild cold but is still a treasure most of the time. Have my first social worker supervisory visit tomorrow morning - thankfully my lovely cleaner is coming today.