Well done on everyone's losses, and a special whoop whoop for Must in the 11s!
Sorry about your grandfather Emz.
I've blown it all, AGAIN, but geared-up AGAIN today. I have NO willpower at all. OK, so I had one minor blip at the beginning of last week and then rather than draw a line after it, I went completely the other way and totally binged. Am disgusted with myself, and really embarrassed that I keep coming here, saying I'm in, then blowing it.
Things at home are not wanting to tempt fate getting more stable, but I feel so used to putting everyone else's needs first, and have pretty permanent anxiety that something is going to flare someone up, that I have almost forgotten how to look after me, and to put myself first, and to think that I am allowed to feel good, in myself and/or in my body. My role seems to keep DC's propped up, to take all of their negative stuff, be a target for DS's anger, try and be responsible for DD's frustrations so she doesn't take it out on herself, keep DH looked after so he can do his demanding job, plus keep my own clients happy too. Eating helps to mop all this up. Does that make sense??