Will be a size 12 by next summer!!

[ColdFeetWarmHeart]

I have just tried to pick up some new summer clothes. Aside from my work clothes I seem to live in jeans and jogging bottoms etc, but its too hot for them though.

Popped into town thinking I'd pick up a maxi dress or two, and some linen trousers/shorts. Tried on a pair of size 20 trousers in Primark and they came nowhere near me!! admittedly primark do come up soon (I am wearing size 18 trousers from George today and they are fine)

Would love to just be able to go into a normal shop, and buy something that fits, without having to walk to a special section. I had a look at the inspire range in New Look today, and its just full of really unflattering tops that all look the same!

Would also be nice to be a bit more comfortable next summer. Feel extra sticky and horrible!!

A bit more focused on healthy eating etc this week. Have really tried not to have too much sugar. Have had just 1 hot chocolate at work all week, instead of 3-4 per shift. Made proper lunches/dinners before I have gone to work instead of having a couple of cereal bars/other processed food at my desk.

I think I need to try and stay away from bread as well. Wheat in general makes me bloat up a lot, and I've found bread doesn't really satisfy me that much. Or at least I am fairly addicted to it, so constantly want more! I made myself a small sandwich last night - as soon as I ate it I went to make another one. Still didn't feel satisfied. Should have just had a bowl of soup!

10lbs in 17 days is brilliant senatus - what have you been doing?

Try not to be too hard on yourself thisisthelasttime - I know its hard though and many of us turn to food when we feel like crap. Can you make yourself feel a bit better in any other way? I know I feel tons better in every way if I can manage a long shower/soak in the tub!! It's almost like clean body, clean mind!

ColdFeet I am (very loosely) low-carbing. Most of the initial loss is probably water and glycogen stores.

I have had eating disorders all my adult life and I am afraid that I am in fact reverting to anorexia after a year-long binge. I had set my MFP goals at 1600kcal/day but I cannot go above 1200kcal. It is not enough to run after the DCs (including a breastfed toddler). I am horribly tired.

1200 calories a day is ok if you feel you have enough energy on it - but you obviously need a bit more. What steps do you normally take to eat well?
Could you start the day with a healthy but filling breakfast? poached eggs? porridge? greek yogurt and fruit?
what are you eating each day that you struggle to get to 1200?

I am currently allowing myself to eat up to 1800 calories a day. I haven't done final tot up for past 2 days, but Monday and Tuesday I was coming in about 1400 calories, now that I have cut out a lot of sugary drinks.

My diary is open on MFP (LadyGisborne).
I have 2 eggs for breakfast, a salad with 90g of ham, 20-25g of bread and a piece of fruit for lunch.
I have a snack at 4 (ham and a 100-150kcal treat - usually a tiny bit of whatever I have baked that day).
Dinner is lean meat, veg, a piece of fruit and a small treat (an After Eight or a Schoko Bon).

The trouble is, I am starting to think I should get rid of the fruit. And the small piece of bread at lunch. And the treats. My head knows what I could / should add but I feel guilty whenever I am not so hungry that I feel faint. I keep telling myself that I am "saving" calories for special occasions, but I don't allow myself these occasions.

I know it will not last forever - it is just another phase in the neverending binge - starve cycle, but it is annoying because I know it is not healthy.

Thanks ladies! I thought I'd replied before, but looks like it got lost or I didn't hit post after all. I struggle with getting up in the morning, Cold feet it'd take a big push to get myself up and out early, but you're right I should.

senatus do you have any RL support? I know you know it's healthier to eat more, but how do you make that work for you? Do you have family or friends who helped before? What about your DP? Supportive or oblivious?!

Coldfeet sounds like your making the right adjustments. I do turn to food a lot. I do walk and am trying to get more fit as have been feeling really breathless recently when walking so going to up the ante.
Senatus it sounds like you are focused but also very hard on yourself (though think we all are)
Lioness I would like to get up early but find it hard.

I am happy today because I am under 80kg. It is probably due to the fact that I barely ate yesterday, but it was nice to see a 7 at last (my first goal weight is 70kg).

Lioness what time to you have to get up? I was not a morning person at all when I had to get up at 5:45.

To answer your question, I don't have any RL support. I don't talk about my eating disorders with DH since he did everything he could to trigger my binge eating last year (he doesn't like when I am slimmer - he thinks I will cheat on him). I have tried talking to health professionals some years ago, but France has a long way to go. The only eating disorders that they know of are anorexia (but only when you look like the stereotypical, emaciated anorexic) and bulimia with purging.

Thankfully my EDs have become much less extreme now that I have DCs. In my early 20s I used to eat either 400kcal/day or 10,000kcal/day.

Hi can I join please? I posted for help yesterday and was signposted over here!

I'm not sure I will ever be a size 12 but I discovered I need to lose 2 stone to even be considered overweight and not obese so that is my first goal. Ideally I would like to lose that by new year. 28lbs in 19 weeks isn't massively unrealistic but I will need to do a lot of work. I'm going to start by starting some exercise and doing 5:2 although I may wait til I go back to work in a week and a half go start 5:2! Will start the exercise and drinking more water now. Will aim for a litre of water a day and build it up.

Good luck everyone! Day 1 and I've done loads of walking. Went to the gym yesterday too. Feeling motivated!

don't mean to sound pessimistic or anything senatus, but it sounds as if you still have someway to go to overcoming / dealing with your ED's. Is there any help that you can get in France? I'm not sure how their health system works.....

lioness its a push to get up and exercise in the mornings, but its also a big push to come home and do it after a long and stressful day at work. Just my experience. Obviously it depends on what time you have to get up. My DH gets up at 4:30ish most mornings - he can't face getting up earlier to make a lunch for himself, left along exercise etc.

hope you are doing well this week thisisthelasttime

hi there kelicandothis - glad to hear people are being signposted over here!! I think I need to lose 3st 9lbs before I can be classed as overweight instead of obese . 28lbs in 19 weeks sounds quite realistic to me. I have tried 5:2 before - you really need to be organised when doing that.

I feel like all diet plans for myself have fallen apart in the last few weeks. Miraculously though, I haven't gained any weight. We are trying to buy a house - I have spent the last 3 mornings on the phone to estate agents and solicitors etc. it's just been continuous until I have run off to work. honestly not had the time to make decent meals. I am hoping that our offer will be confirmed etc later on today. At least then I will just be dealing with solicitors.

Good luck with the house! I briefly did 5:2 a whole ago so have a fairly basic idea of meals etc. Definitely agree with being organised! Am pleased with lots of walking yesterday. Today I might go for a run. I can't run to save my life so I will look into c25k. Plan to go to body combat on Saturday and pilates on Sunday. Might go for a swim on Friday if I'm up to it. Again, I'm not a great swimmer so will need to build that up too.

Welcome Keli - it is great there are so many things to do where you live!

ColdFeet I know my EDs are still there, but in France there is very little support (hospitalisation for anorexics whose life is in danger, but that's all). I mentioned it to my GP last time I took DD and he actually laughed, telling me that it won't harm me to lose some weight and to come back when I am under 7 stones.

When I am a bit lighter I will start doing exercise DVDs again. They tone me up and curb my cravings, giving me "good", actual hunger.

Senatus I'm not sure if you mentioned your height but you don't sound hugely overweight. Is there any online ed groups you can join.
Keli you sound motivated , good on you. I am finding it hard to kick start the exercise. I lost my 1lb that I gained last week.
Girls we really need to knuckle down if we want this for next summer. I know we are all saying 28 lb is achievable but I know that it is hard. We have to work at it and commit. We have to pick right choices and do some form of exercise. So let's gear our selves up this weekend and be prepared and ready for Monday.
Now hopefully I will listen to my own advice.

Thisisthelasttime I am 5'7. I started 1lb away from being obese. My BMI is now 27.5. It is not hugely overweight compared to my heaviest weight ever (BMI >35) but I still need to lose about 1.5st to be back in the "normal" range.

I can't seem to find time to exercise either. DH is away from 7:30AM to 10:30PM these days. DD2 sleeps very little and I absolutely need her short nap for DS's and DD1's homeschooling.

senatus sorry the health system and DH aren't helpful... The online support is a good idea, and you're mindful of it all, which must be a positive...

Welcome keli!

I haven't done much exercise this week, new school, composite class at opposite end of age spectrum. Been up til midnight every night planning and making resources then leaving house at 7:30. I managed a couple of walks at night, but hopefully I can get organised and use Fridays to do work so I have time to exercise in evenings. (I don't work Fridays, I'm not posting from work!) 6:30 isn't terribly early, but like cold feets DH I make lunch, set out clothes and wash my hair in evening to save time in morning. I can't face getting up any earlier I am terribly grumpy if I get fewer than 6.5 hours sleep, I've bitten my tongue a few times to avoid being short with kids this week. Must get on and just do it!

Like I said senatus - I wasn't trying to sound negative or anything. Just from things you say it comes across that the ED's are still there. Though it's obvious that you realise that. I'm not sure what to say that might be helpful really, esp if GP's over there don't really recognise eating problems. Do they have hypnotherapists who specialise in eating disorders in France? Could you afford a session or two. Again, not sure if that would be helpful or not. Though sometimes I think about having hypnotherapy myself - try to get help to get rid of my bad habits (and avoid passing them on to DD!)

Keli you sound very motivated exercise wise! We have agreed the purchase of a house woohoo!!!, so I am hoping that my mornings won't be as busy. Obviously will still be busy with sols and mortgage advisor etc, but it shouldn't be a constant stream of phonecalls from now on......(I hope!). At the very least I shall find time make time to do the wii fit for a bit each day. That is something I can do with DD under my feet - she like to try and join in.

How have you got on today thisisthelasttime?

ooh dear *lioness I don't envy you. But I do wish you luck at the new school! Hopefully you will have more time once you settle in (she says naively, having never worked as a teacher......)

Getting on on warmheart. Thanks. It is a hard hard struggle though. Went shopping this morning for some school stuff. Dd met her friends so I decided to go have my lunch . Temptation temptation . Ended up with a 350 cal egg sambo and a coffee. I ignored all the cakes and muffins. I really want to buy some clothes but waiting to hit the stone mark so another 10 lb or so to go.
Haven't really started the walking yet properly so tomorrow maybe.
Hope all having a good weekend

Congrats on the house coldfeet that's exciting! It is what you were looking for? Good luck with wii fit this week - I'm a big kid and love the obstacle course and table tilt games (the one with the balls you have to roll around the plates). Haven't been on it for ages though. Thanks for good luck for school, all a bit hectic just now!

thisisthelasttime 350cal for lunch sounds good to me. Well done for ignoring cakes, I ended up with triple chocolate muffin on Wed, and chocolate fudge cake on Thurs. Oops. Delicious, but definitely my downfall.

Good luck everyone, here's to another new week!

Hi everyone. I hope you are having a nice weekend.

Coldfeet congratulations on the house! How long until you can move in?

Lioness it sounds like a tasty week . I have just baked a batch of cookies using dark brown sugar. They taste amazing but I managed to eat only half a cookie.

Now I feel guilty if I go over the 1000kcal mark. Yesterday night I called myself greedy because I had a second helping of roasted cauliflower. I am pathetic.

well done on resisting temptation thisisthelasttime - that's a big thing to battle, especially when its all laid out in front of you

Thanks lioness and senatus. House isn't everything that we had hoped for, but those houses were about £100k out of our price range! It is a lovely house though - recently been renovated so there isn't anything to do when we move in, other than putting up curtains, painting walls to our own tastes etc. It will probably be 10-12 weeks before we move in - depends on the solicitors really.

out of interest senatus what do you do/tell yourself when you starting thinking this way (guilty for eating more than 1000 calories, greedy for eating veges etc)? Do you manage to convince yourself you're being too harsh on yourself?

Well, the stomach bug has hit our household. DD sick since Friday night, I fell ill yesterday afternoon and it hit DH in the middle of the night. Needless to say I haven't done the wii fit today, but I have barely eaten either!! Hopefully I will feel better tomorrow. Just feel "flu-ey" now (as in ache all over, deep into my bones, rather than wanting to throw up or having stomach cramps).

Can I join you please?

I've got 6 stone to lose. Feeling super depressed at how big/unhealthy i've got.

My goals are
2ltrs of water a day every day (i'm hit and miss with this)
exercise everyday (either jillian micheals/yoga/or a run
follow a low carb diet

I need to use this thread as my place of accountability, if that's okay?

of course it is weDONTneedanotherhero - good luck with your journey. I also need to lose about 6 stone (just under) to get into the healthy range (just) - if you listen to the wii fit I need to lose 7st

I'm going to start again tomorrow as it were, as in trying to focus on a couple of goals, and log on here (accountability again).
This week I aim to:

• drink 1 litre of water/squash per day, plus other liquids (tea, milk)
• minimum of 15 mins exercise every day
• eat 1800 calories or less

I know I need to plan my meals more and cut out the wheat (esp the bread) as much as possible.

I will log in tomorrow night to report back!

Right, just been doing some calculations. I must lose 2lbs per week. I must lose 2 lbs per week. I must lose 2lbs per week ........

Baby steps are the key, ColdFeet

Welcome WeDONTneedanotherhero. You must be quite fit to be able to do a Jillian Michaels DVD with 6 extra st - I know I couldn't!

I haven't lost a single gram in a week. I am gutted - I was under 1000kcal every day! I forced myself to have a late breakfast and I will try to stay over the 1000kcal mark, then gradually increase to 1200.

Senatus, I'm not going to lie, it bloody kills me

DH still works crazy hours, and DC3 still doesn't sleep (about 9 hours at night, waking up 2-3 times, and a 1-hour nap). I cannot shred!

I have ordered the "Body by You" book. I hope to spread the exercises throughout the day when I have a few minutes to myself.