Morning.
Amanda thanks, I’m in the process of handing it all to my solicitor this morning. I’m just scared that he’ll physically harm one of us. It’s really not easy to live with that fear.
Actually, Mark Webber said something at the end of his disastrous race yesterday which has really helped me put it in perspective “it's annoying but someone's had a tougher day than me somewhere and that’s the way it goes”
Anyway, I’m trying to focus on other things. Like my weight and my awful hair. Time to get back on track & start treating myself nicely again.
I’m going to attempt 5:2 tomorrow but I’m really worried the weight will pile back on when I stop because, lets face it, I’m not going to be able to keep that up forever! I’m also going to speak to my hairdresser before my next appointment – I’ve gone really quite blonde and my roots look horrendous 6 weeks post colour. Hair is also straw like. I’m considering going back to natural colour but that’s quite dark so I’m not sure if it’ll be too much of a change in one go. Rather than stressing, I’m going to just sort it. I’ve pulled my appointment forward a week and I know I can pop in for a chat this week to see what she thinks.
Weekend food:
Sat:
B – eggy bread
L – cheese and biscuits
D – chilli with chips and rice.
S – none but far too much alcohol again
Sun:
B – scrambled egg, 2 rashers bacon, mushrooms and beans
L – none
D – roast turkey with the trimmings followed by a huge bowl on vanilla icecream, caramel mousse and salted caramel sauce
S – 8 squares of milk chocolate. Wine.
Was wedding anniversary yesterday though so not too bothered 
Today:
B – none
L – Heinz ravioli
D – seabass fillet with veg
S – I need to avoid the van but I have some dark chocolate with me as I quite often fancy something sweet after a meal so I figure a square or two of dark chocolate will be enough to take the craving away.
No alcohol, plenty of water and some exercise also on the cards for today. Planning tomorrow’s food already. I’m thinking hard boiled egg for breakfast, soup for lunch – butternut squash or a chunky veg concoction and salmon with stir-fry veg for dinner. That should be filling and under 500kcals. I hope.
Amanda I quite often feel I need sugar when I'm tired so you're not alone there. You poor thing, I hope you get some respite soon xxx