Stop Bingeing and Start Eating Healthily Thread

[SnowyWellies]

Would anyone like to join me? I am a yo yo dieter, a failed WW (could not bear the small portions) failed SW (went wild on Free foods) and I eat too much of the wrong sorts of food. I binge then starve and I want to get out of that cycle. I also enjoy my evening 3 glass of wine a little too much! I feel bloated, pasty, tired and I hate how I look in the mirror. I am about to hit 40, and I refuse to spend any more time hating myself. I want to deal with my psychological food issues, and I want to finally be the woman I am meant to be.

I am 5 ft 2 and weigh 11 stone 3.

My aim- to increase fruit and veg. To cut out wheat as I bloat very badly on wheat. To take as much care over my own diet as I do over the diets of my children and my husband. To not treat my body like a rubbish bin.

As of this morning. I am tired. My skin is pale and blotchy. I am very bloated in the stomach. I am aiming to lose 24 pounds, but want to do it properly and without feeling deprived. I want to make this process luxurious, with a focus on gorgeous healthy food.

Today's plan:

Breakfast - fruit and natural yoghurt with a drizzle of honey.

Lunch - home made carrot and coriander soup.

Dinner - fresh veg risotto.

I need ideas for delicious alcohol-free drinks. Currently I love a splash of grapefruit juice and soda water.

Anyone want to join me? The focus is on good food, and to deal with the psychological issues around bingeing and self hatred. I am not a psychologist, just someone who needs- and can offer support!

Weigh in days will be Mondays and Thursdays.

[50shadesofbrown]

Well done hazel

heart my DD fell once when I was in other room, we'd not realised she could pull herself up. I suddenly heard agonised screaming & rushed in to find her on floor by sofa. Doc said she was fine, just a bump on the head, but I spent the next 2-3 days checking continuously as was convinced she would die & it would be my fault. She was fine. Silly hormonal me!

baking I'm a keen walker but that's pretty impressive!

Emily I love chocolate hobnobs, they are my absolute favourite naughty treat.

I've had a fab day. Wore ankle weights again, got home, DH just taking DD out for walk, so I got changed & joined them. Realised I can fit (sort of) into a pair of trousers that haven't fit since I was 10 weeks pregnant. They are on the snug side but I can sit down & eat so that's good enough. Walked around for about 2 hours with weights & pushing the push chair. Got measured & discovered I have been wearing bras 2 cup sizes too small, no wonder they all looked crap last week.

Am going to go through all my smaller clothes this weekend & see if anything else fits - really hope so, my choice of clothes at present is pitiful. I'm sure I must have lost a bit, but I'm not weighing until Monday.

[iheartshoes]

Thanks ladies , I don't think there has been any lasting damage done but I just felt so awful and scared by how quickly she went under last night , bless her. Fasting day two finished I ended up having a slightly larger portion of stir fry than I think I should have so that's probably pushed me over 500 cals , annoying , but that and the crisp breads plus tea , coffee , watet were the only things that passed my lips today so even if its not 500 cals it's got to be better than the junk I was scoffing before surely ? Really really hope I've lost a bit of weight, weighing tomorrow morning , fingers crossed

[50shadesofbrown]

heart try not to worry about it. I'm sure every parent has a 'near miss' at some point.

[SixPackWellies]

Good morning all!

2 hours with weights 50? That sounds very impressive!! Well done on the jeans too.

Good luck with the wi iheart. I meant to this morning but had a cup of coffee before I did, so decided I will tomorrow.

I am feeling positive this morning. I am writing everything down, I am concentrating on fresh fruit and veg, I plan to eat roughly every 2 hours- a tiny amount so I never get too hungry, and I am ditching the booze completely until I am 9 stone 7.

Today

two cups of coffee with soy milk
9 am - 1 apple and a cup of herbal tea
11 am - I oatcake and hummus
13.00 - wrap with lots of raw fresh vegetables
15.00- 1 cup spicy tomato soup
17.00 - 1/2 banana shared with a DC
18.00 - (my wine 'calling' time)- a glass of pineapple juice mixed with diet lemonade and garnished with fresh mint
19.00 - leftover chicken and salad.

herbal teas all night.

yum yum.

I have decided also my 'treat' for when I get to my next goal- 10 stone- a pair of red converse shoes. Have just discovered converses (yeah I know, where HAVE I been??!!) and I love them!

Have great, strong, sparkly and happy days Fellow Revolutionaries!

[iheartshoes]

six pack your menu today looks fab , healthy and delicious. WI this morning was 9st8lb and 3/4. So exactly a pound and a quarter down from this time last week. More would have been great but I'm not complaining and from reading the 5:2 forums on here about a 1lb a week loss is average?
Anyway I'm not even that hungry this morning so just having a nice coffee while waiting for DD to wake up. Dinner tonight is spag Bol which ill have with salad rather than pasta , maybe soup for lunch . Keep at it everyone

[iheartshoes]

Converses are the best, brill way to treat yourself :)

[twinklestar2]

Big hugs hazel x

[50shadesofbrown]

Hugs to hazel hope you have some good support in RL.

[Hazelbrowneyes]

Thanks both. Yes, DH is being amazing. My colleagues and friends are being a great help too.

[Bakingnovice]

Hazel sending you hugs.

I had a horrible time this morning. Walking home from school with my friend, an Asian mum. Car stopped guy got out and started swearing and spitting at her. We were so terrified and scared. I nearly cried but held it together. Im so sad at all the racism cos of the horrendous attack yesterday. This friend is a dr, an important member of my community. And now the edl is planning on doing a march near us. Also my poor friend and I were due to take our kids to the seaside on sat but she can't face going. Is worried about more attacks on her or kids. I'm devastated. Should I persuade her to go?

Sorry to derail the thread. Needed to offload!

[SixPackWellies]

Hugs Hazel. Take care of yourself... you and your family come first, always.

Have PM-ed you Baking

Hugs all Fellow Revolutionaries.

[iheartshoes]

Hazel I am so sorry you are going through a tough patch. Big hugs. xx

Baking that is horrible, your poor poor friend. I just can't understand what possesses some people to be so utterly vile.

[Emilythornesbff]

hazel I'm so sorry you're going through this. I'm thinking of you and I hope it all ends well vey soon. Sending you a big hug and a glass of something nice. Do log on if you find the distraction helpful. It will be nie to hear that you're ok.

baking how awful. I'm afraid I don't know how to advise you. That must be very upsetting.

I'm fasting today. Seems a bit trivial.

Thinking of all you fellow revolutionaries.

[Emilythornesbff]

nie?? Nice of course. Doh!

[Hazelbrowneyes]

Thanks Em I'm fine xx

Of course, I'm eating like a horse today...why can't I be one of those people who can't eat when stressed & worried?!

[Emilythornesbff]

I know! Me too!

[50shadesofbrown]

Baking that sounds awful. I hope you are able to reassure your friend that (judging by what I've seen on MN & in some of the papers) the majority of people would not behave like that. I do live in an area with a fairly high Asian population & I've not witnessed anything like that, nor have any colleagues.

I'm not a stress eater Emily & hazel, I do lose my appetite, (think it's a control thing but ironically I have no control over it) but I do tend to binge when I'm bored. I find having a hobby you can do with your hands helps (I knit as you really need clean hands) would this work for you?

[Emilythornesbff]

Morning fellow revolutionaries!
NFD for me. Must. Not. Snack.
Right, I need to go shopping for some actual real food.

[SixPackWellies]

Morning fellow Revolutionaries.

Hope you are okay Hazel.

Hope everyone is okay.

Nothing to report here. :)

[Hazelbrowneyes]

Morning all. Had my previous posts withdrawn through paranoia that I'd said too much. Now I'm realising I probably hadn't! In fact I'm itching to talk about it as talking has really helped me make sense (as much as I can anyway) of what's happening.

Yesterday was pretty bad foodwise.

Croissant, quavers, dairy milk caramel, mugshot, sea bass with chips and salad. No alcohol though.

Didn't get on the scales this morning, I really didn't need to put myself in an even worse mood!!

I didn't get home until nearly 8 last night so didn't make lunch for today. I guess it'll be another mugshot then! No idea what we'll have for dinner. I think it all depends on what happens today. I've had a croissant for breakfast as had to be in work for 7.30.

Must get some work done today, otherwise I might as well admit defeat where this troublemaker is concerned.

I appear to have crumbled into millions of pieces over this (mmm...crumbled...crumbs...biscuits) and need to pull myself together. I know what to do if the troublemaker appears. I know I have plenty of support. Still bloody petrified though.

Anyone have anything fun planned for the bank holiday?

[Emilythornesbff]

Morning esteemed leader [salutes sixpack]

Morning hazel please reveal today's mugshot flavour
I like the biscuit metaphor btw.
thinking of you.

I have had small pice of toast and marmite and some yogurt with 'no added sugar' alpen, plus coffee. Had a reasonable night so I don't feel like raiding DH's galaxy counters (nobody seems concerned about ^that^ waistline ).

Now just feeding dd then it's off grocery shopping for ice cream lovely nutritious food.
We have lunch out tomorrow and visitors over this w.e so I need to be organised (yeah right)

Onwards and [fingers crossed " please, please" ] downwards FRs!

[twinklestar2]

Hey girls I weighed this morning and am 10 8 so have officially lost half a stone. I think all the running is helping, I ran nearly 20km over the course of last week.

Keep going all of you you're doing great!

[Hazelbrowneyes]

Twinkle That's great news! Well done!

Em I have a choice today...spicy sweet and sour noodles, roast chicken noodles or tomato and herb pasta. I had the spicy sweet and sour yesterday. These are of course Aldi's own version but I can't tell the difference.

It's weird, in the last hour I seem to have really picked myself up. I almost want the troublemaker to appear today so I can get it over and done with. It helps that Fridays are always super busy so there's a lot going on. I've got a suit on today which I find helps - if I dress for business, I feel more "powerful". This could go on for months yet and I can't sit here doing sod all for that long. I can't let the troublemaker win. They've already screwed up my diet this week, they can piss off if they think they're screwing up my life. (Please be aware, this sudden bravado may disappear at any moment!)