anyone needing to lose weight for their health?

[mybabyweightiseightyearsold]

So, after spending half my life trying to lose weight - I have realised that I can't do it.

Am 45% fat, 4 stones overweight, high BP, cholesterol's a problem, borderline thyroid - and 40 years old. BMI is 35 - that qualifies me for a gastric band, go me!

GP agreed not to start BP meds if I lose weight in 3 months...

...but, feck, it's hard.

I've lost about half a stone - which is usually where I start to lose motivation. And, the reality is, I'm killing myself, so I can't afford to lose motivation.

I've tried ALL the slimming groups. What I need to do is eat less, do more and not pick at food whilst preparing it, drink wine in the week, pick at nibbles in the evening. It's not that hard, the rest of the world manages!

So, what I'd like is a place to vent - and remind myself that I have now got a life limiting condition. That I have no choice - eating because I am sad/happy/lonely/partying/bored/busy can no longer be an option.

Anyone fancy a support thread along those lines?

Also a problem with leftovers here too as I've got a bit of a thing about wasted food. Hate it! So, I'm in the habit now that if there's enough for another portion I'll plate it up at the same time and it'll go in the fridge. If it's on plates bin it straight away or I have been known to squirt it with washing up liquid to stop myself! Think it's just all about changing habits. We live in a bungalow and in the evenings it helps that the kitchen is miles away from the lounge! And there's no heating in there!