Will try to repeat yesterdays lost post.
Yes, I am ill, but I've worked (mostly) throughout the last 12 years with the illness.
CM would cost much, much more even if I could find one for the hours I would need. I would need one from 05:45 (hence the reason for hoping Ds would get Dd up, ready and to a BC) hours and some nights, I wouldn't be picking up until 10:30/11pm which is just not doable or fair on the Dc's (and I don't even know if Ds would/could be child minded at age 13).
I do think that friends wouldn't do it either judging by the thread that's going on about that...also they'd have to register as a child minder and then the price would rise anyway. I don't think they'd be my friend for long with me knocking on their door at that early hour either.
I tried claiming DLA in 2004, but I was so ill at the time, that it took me 6 weeks to complete it and I was turned down anyway. Utterly soul destroying that was.
I have a mortgage, but I also have an extension with a leaking roof and an unrelated damp problem. The entire house needs rewiring as it's nearly 60 years old and dangerous. I have plumbing problems too.
I can craft Niecie, but I get a bit 'don't want to do it if I have to' and I'd definitely have to wouldn't I? I've also found that people don't want to pay for hand made/home made goods even though everything I make is entirely unique and if I may say so ~ beautiful. Folksy charge when you sell stuff I think Niecie...I know it's not a free thing anyway. I tried selling my baby blankets on ebay and they emailed me asking if I was a business!!! I said no and disappeared!
pp yes Dd is over the pox and yes, I'm up for a coffee next week :) can't do Weds or Thurs am though. Also, would be easier on the afternoons as Dd is not at nursery then, so easier to relax against the clock iyswim? Let me know!