2011 Paul Mckenna

[Deafworm]

Hi all

I wondered if anyone else was planning to follow Paul mckenna this year and lose their weight?

im currently 16st13 and intend to end the year a fit toned 10st. im a bit hit and miss with following the golden rules but when i do i have seen results so from today i will follow it and get the results i want.

as well as the weight loss with paul mckenna i intend to

do the just dance 2 fitness thing every day till my husband (RAF) flies out to the middle east around april

do the couch to 5k plan and run race for life this year

start the 30 day shred when dh goes away and repeat it till he comes home (approx 4 months)

I also have one of those magic leg trainers coming on home approval so will have a play with that and see if its worth keping, apart from that i will reassess my fitness in august when he gets home and come to some decisions on how to go forward with that then but for now these seem like reasonable goals, especially when they're on top of really following the golden rules.

so anyone else following 'the rules' this year and going to join me with their aims?

the book for anyone curious about it, though i got mine from my local works type bookshop for less than £5 thats less than one weeks ww/sw/etc subs to try it out and its honestly the most sensible weightloss plan ive ever looked at

I hope whinging about being 12+stone hasn't annoyed anyone too much, I know it might seem to some like it does to me hearing all the size 10 girls on my facebook go on about 'already hitting target after 4 weeks at WeightWatchers' but we all have out own personal battles I guess, and mine is in my head every day and has been for around 20 years.

Last night in bed I felt a bit like this is going to work, like I was losing weight, you know that feeling when you start to feel a bit like you have pointy bones, like the edges of yourself are becoming a bit clearer. And it started scaring me, in a 'ooh you don't want to get thin' way. I mean, wtf I have been doing this since Monday and already my subconscious is backfiring.

Have not felt as in control today, have eaten quickly and not tasted it enough, have probably eaten more than I needed to. All as a consequence of last night's brain battle probably.

The book & cd has turned up though, so can concentrate properly on it & start the 90 day journal.

NotOlive i think you're right, no more i'll start on monday crap i should just do it.

wmmc i'll give that a go, i'd better go and wipe off 2 years worth of dust

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ursula - no not feeling like anyone is whingeing - just recognising I have a lot of work to do!

Oh but we all do :) It's that brain thing, I could have 20lb or 20stone to lose, I just berate myself constantly & that's what I need to change.

I felt exactly like that pregnant too, ample, happy with my body and I actually slimmed down everywhere but my bump & ate 'normally'. Weird!

I've been quite good today; my only indulgence has been a mug of instant hot chocolate. Must get back on that wagon.

NotOlive, why is your house a mess? mine is too and I put it down to my emotional state along side the depression which is why I comfort eat...
I have been cleaning my bathroom today ~ it was really grotty and not quite finished yet, but so much better :) probably why I've been so good with food ~ well that and the fact that there's not much in the house to 'munch' on.

Happy New (Chinese) Year everyone! 'Tis the year of the Rabbit- so leap to new heights and eat your greens

WMMC- you are an inspiration to us for not consoling yourself with sweet stuff. Hope your evening is more chilled.

AmpleBosom- I have been reading your MN name as AppleBlossom- just realised

I had an OK day today- was v busy with the DDs and that always helps. Did galumphing dancing class then went on a trek to find vanilla pods then kiddie and mum exercise class then met friends at park.

I find that I eat worse on days when I don't get enough adult company so today was good.

Can someone clarify the wine philosophy w PMK, please?

I need to re-read the book, so far have just skimmed and do the exercises properly.

Ursula - the self-sabotaging thing is very common. Quite often we've had very negative messages reinforced in the past 'you'll never make it, so don't bother trying' etc. - not deliberately but by people who have a pessimistic outlook.

I am by nature quite optimistic, but have been known to be bloody pessimistic when it comes to my weight partly because it's just a bloody hard slog but also because whenever I lose weight I also shed partners. I know that sounds mad but every time I've lost a lot of weight it's led to men leaving me - my first big boyfriend (big as in serious) left me because he got jealous of all the attention I was getting and thought I'd be unfaithful (WTF?! ). My first husband, I lost weight and realised he would never ever be able to keep up with me in terms of fitness or being outgoing and we sort of drifted apart - he suddenly seemed very old and boring when I started living etc.

DH (mark 2) met me when I weighed a stone less than I do now and liked me then, and I know he can't keep up with me physically - he's 20 years older, so I don't mind that so much now. But he also isn't phased by people flirting with me so I'm confident this one will ride out the storm but losing weight does change your life and that's deeply scary sometimes.

And I do think it's scarier when you have more to lose to be honest. I think you have had longer to grow into the idea of your body being like that and using it to become invisible and protected.

But it's bloody scary when a few weeks in people start to look at you differently (and they do) because it's like you suddenly apparate. You didn't really exist for them before but you become someone to be looked at and judged rather than just random blobby mummy at the school gate.

My house is a tip because my wonderful cleaner, who DH pays so I don't complain about him being a lazy arse, is coming tomorrow. Actually it's not too bad, she'll be shocked.

Solo I tried one of those Options hot chocolate things last nice - bleeurgh, it was not nice. If that's what 'diets' force people to do to themselves no wonder they fail

WMMC you speak so much sense, I read your posts and nod along! Hope your evening has been better than your day.

I think I am also a bit scared of the attention I might get, find it easy to blend into the background. Am v v pessimistic by nature. Have been sort of offered a sort of promotion/new job- have turned it down before as been too scared but am pretty sure this time am going to go for it. Time to be positive about myself I think!

Right. The guy on the disc...
I hate the way he says 'cumftably'
Cumftably relaxed, cumftably aware, cumftably cumftable.
It makes my tonsils curl.

I just had to say.

Interesting WMMC, I find I tend to shed partners (or get shedded), then lose the weight, then get coupled up again and put it all back on.

Hope PM can save me from having to divorce this time.

I have had an okay day today, moving nervously to my first weigh in on Monday.

Still finding it hard to eat consciously, too tempting to go on the laptop when eating, but keeping on trying.

Had to eat when not hungry today, as I was going to the gym and have to exercise on an empty stomach or get indigestion, so if I didn't eat at 5 knew I would be starving just before 7 leaving for the gym.

FGM re wine - PMC reckons no alcohol for the first few weeks as it tends to stop you focusing on your eating (or indeed anything if you drink enough of it ).

nevergoogled - know what you mean about the way he pronounces certain words - I think it's a problem with being a radio DJ for a while you get a sliding nuance thing going on - I know, I suffer from it myselfsometimes

Ursula - what are you scared of more - not succeeding or not trying. All the people you might think have 'made it' have failed many, many times. The only difference is they get back up and have another go. Go for the promotion you would not be asked if they were not confident you could do it!

I've been doing pretty well, and making healthier choices and enjoying lots of fresh fruit and veg. But my digestive system seemed to go into shock and at 5pm yesterday I had stomach cramps and diarrhoea that lasted 3 hours.
And then i ate out tonight with friends and ate probably more than I should have.
How do you eat consciously in a restaurant with 5 children with you intent on leaving the table and running round the restaurant?
I'm now feeling stuffed and know i should have stopped, but didn't.

Not going to beat myself up. Going to drink lots of water and listen to the CD again CUMFTABLY.

Oh dear nevergoogle. Eating consciously with five children is tricky. Normally you see it's easier because you have to chase them between mouthfuls, giving exercise as well as indigestion.

Seriously, I always choose something which it doesn't matter if it goes cold (chicken salad for example). Then I cut it up so I can eat with one hand if required. Then I go forkful by forkful.

But it's a fecking nightmare I agree. Now I tend not to eat when the kids eat and just have a drink and eat later when they aren't around and I can really enjoy it.

I'm more scared of never trying anything, being stuck in my own walled-off hesitant poor-me psycho drama of negativity. & staying fat to boot! Thank you :)

I'm also pesimistic :( wish I wasn't, but I am

Usually if I'm in a relationship and my heart gets broken, the weight falls off me (usually, I'm already slim ), but the last time it happened in November 08, I felt anger, not the heartache I usually feel and that was when I started eating...plus I literally watched my Dad fade away and die. Food was my comfort zone, but I've paid the price, plus I'm still angry, so the possibility of wanting to eat the wrong foods (I know, I know!) is sooo there! arghhh.

Ursula - that's WONDERFUL - so now you need to work out what you do want rather than what you don't. Make a list. Being thin is only part of it. What do you really want to achieve this year? Aim high. Worst case scenario you won't achieve all of it, but even getting part way is going to make you a whole lot happier. What are you waiting for? :) Pen. Paper, write.

Mine was the Galaxy hot chocolate

AmpleBosom I am exactly the same. After my dd was born everyone said how amazing I looked. Since then I have put on two dress sizes. When pregnant I just make healthy choices, eating a nice balanced diet. I think it may be oxytocin replacing the comfort eating. I also feel great about my body when pregnant, but bow I'm back to the same self-critical bullying thoughts when I look in the mirror.

I'd LOVE to be able to throw that same switch on in my brain without getting pregnant!

WMMC I'm sorry you had such a testing day. I'm sure you'll navigate it though.

Haven't caught up with the rest of the thread yet as I've just got back from an all-you-can-eat Chinese. Two plates and dessert. But didn't eat past full and loved every mouthful!

not olive we are about the same size so you arent alone.

ample bosom i do the same in pregnancy, odd isn't it.

good luck with the promotion ursulabuffay

i have a poorly 3 year old today, so im being cuddled to within an inch of my life! put a lot of time into sorting out my house yesterday and im itching to carry on. having a candle party tomorrow so more reason than normal to try to get the house presentable! havent eaten anything yet today trying to work out if i am hungry yet. think im getting there so will have a drink and then maybe get some brunch. i babysat last night and snacked but i didnt finish either of the things i took with me, cashews and yoghurt raisins, i think i ate a little too much but normally i can inhale those without thinking so im calling it a success! wmmc im going to take a leaf out of your book and be more positive, i can and will do this and its really not about the scales. im so close to giving them up. put on atop yesterday which id previously refused to wear as i looked pregnant in it, but yesterday it looked good :o

solo so sorry about your dad :( But great that you are able to acknowledge your bad eating habits because that means you are ready to fix them. :)

Deafworm - I will be coming with my size 24 mum on the 19th, and I have the feeling most people will be above a size 18. :)

Great news about your top too! It's so nice when you find things that you'd previously rejected as too tight and realise they now fit. You'll have to get used to feeling that lovely feeling in the future - however will you cope

Well I've had a cracking morning, great radio interview this morning and now sitting down to fruity couscous for lunch. Played my harp for an hour last night and it's really coming on and while the kids are still being irritating, I don't care. I'm on this road, I'm sticking to it and I will get there by June. :)

I'm having an emotionally hungry day today

DH is studying for an MBA- he'll be away until v late tonight (midnight) then away all day tomorrow. It doesn't help that he's been ill the last 2 weekends. And when he's focussed on work he doesn't think to communicate with me. I feel left out! With the DDs by myself again at the weekend.

Need to work more on the emotional eating stuff- when I get a chance- when DDs are in bed.

Any tips for now?

I think I may be in danger of developing a massive teeny tiny girl crush on WMMC