Hello everyone. NotOlive from the webchat here if anyone remembers me.
I've been lurking a bit on this thread and have been quite inspired by some of your stories, especially the most motivational wmmc. I haven't posted because I actually joined yet another tub club Weight Watchers shortly before the webchat, and was giving that a go. I've lost about 6 pounds but I'm already sick of weighing food/counting points and generally getting obsessive, but I thought, seeing as I'd gone for the monthly pass, I'd kind of stick with it until the seminar to give me a head start.
I had a sort of epiphany earlier in the week when I was about to deny myself a luscious, vitamin-packed avocado (one of my favourite foods) which has loads of points in favour of a Weightwatchers crappy ready meal with loads of additives, but had fewer points. How can that be a useful choice? I went for the avocado and really enjoyed it!
Anyway I'm quite
of some of you who are about 20% overweight as I have quite a big mountain to climb, being a size 22 with an arse the size of a small county. I've been overweight pretty much all my adult life and have tried all the diets, which work for a while but I put it all back on. I even tried the PM CDs a couple of years back but didn't really put my heart into it, as I was still slightly miffed with my experience at his stage show. But he kindly apologised and I need to move on. 
I fully recognise that I am a total emotional eater. I think wwmc mentioned her family as being comfort eaters. I see my mum, who grew up with rationing in the war, offering my DC treats all the time as if that constitutes the best way of showing her love for them. When the kids visit it starts with pains au chocolat for breakfast and continues with biscuits for snacks, special trips out to the chippy for lunch, puddings, etc etc. Luckily they only go for a few days at half term.
But having spent my whole childhood in that sort of environment, I guess my brain has been hard-wired to equate food with comfort. (I'm not blaming my mum btw, but just trying to analyse how I got here. I'm also trying hard to not pass on the comfort eating thing to my DCs).
So, having spent the last 20 odd years of my life either battling or ignoring this problem, it's time to move on. I already have a dodgy knee, and who knows what other health problems I am storing up. I want to be able to shop at normal shops and buy nice clothes. And I want to be able to walk up a hill without getting out of breathe. And I don't want to spend the rest of my life alternately weighing out food and calculating calories or points, and then getting bored of it all, jacking it in and putting the weight back on.
By the way, I have a spare ticket for the seminar if anyone is still needing one. Thought I'd offer it on this thread first. Looking forward to meeting some of you there.