I’ve plateaued again for the last 2 weeks and not lost a thing, (7.5 for 6 weeks) then at the end of last week (I jab on a Sunday) I was feeling extreme hunger, it was actually painful and it was even there when I was eating. I took that as a sign my dosage just wasn’t enough, I was due to order yesterday so I’ve gone ahead and ordered 10mg. I think I’m being impatient and perhaps learning to manage the hunger and work through the calorie issue would have been the better option, but to be honest it’s so expensive and knowing that the last 2 weeks have been a waste is galling. I’ve got 2 stone to go, so I’m really close (I have lost 6.5stone, 5 with MJ). My money situation is also changing drastically at the end of May, I had hoped I’d be at target and able to taper down but it doesn’t look like that’s an option for me just yet. Although my money situation is changing, my time situation is also changing which is a very good thing. I’ll be able to get to the gym and classes, walking and having time to shop for food mindfully. I do honestly believe that the main issue with my relationship with food and nutrition is modern living and this high pressure lifestyle that dictates every move.
I’ve also run into a few issues with friends, or perhaps not actual friends. I’m not sure if others have found this, but I’ve always been the ‘fat friend’, certain friends have always taken me under their wing and given me support to lose weight and it really cemented my friendships with them. At the time, I felt that they were great friends and really helpful and supportive. Anyway, I started MJ and only told my mum and husband, it wasn’t anyone’s business but my true reason for this is that I didn’t believe it would work and couldn’t face the constant weight monitoring from everyone and the shame when I wasn’t losing. Thankfully it’s worked, and the friends I thought I had have all but shoved me out, it’s like I’ve affected the dynamic and one in particular has just left me out of everything. It started when a mutual friend asked her if was on ‘skinny jabs’ and she said no, when she told me I explained I had been on MJ. Things changed, she asked me how she hadn’t noticed - I don’t know why she didn’t notice, everyone else had. I haven’t seen any of them in weeks. Another of my friends is concerned I’ll ’go too far’, again quite patronising and insulting, I’m not doing this for attention - I have a clear and strict goal in sight which I’ve discussed with my dr.
I guess dynamics change within friendships but I didn’t realise that my weight would ever be a factor. As I don’t need ‘fixing’ anymore I don’t seem to be required as a friend (I should add that those friends are all heavily into fitness as part of their work and social life). I’d have thought I’d be less of a friend to them previously as I couldn’t do all of the active things they do, but now I can.
I realise we sound like school children. We are all in our 40s, so I’ve just got on with it.
On the positive side; we’ve booked a holiday! This is the first time I’m not dreading the heat, having to wear shorts, the small plane seat (and not being able to put the tray down), and just all of that really. I haven’t been abroad with the children as a not obese person, so that will be a new experience for me.
SW: 18 stone 6
CW: 13 stone 5
TW: 11 stone 3
Started: 21/9/25
on 7.5mg currently