I am currently acting deputy at my school, whenever I have asked the head if I am doing the right things she describes me as her rock and said I am a massive support. She had 3 weeks off with stress and I ran the school. Interviews happened, I didn't get the job... a younger man has been appointed who is apparently inspirational. I have been totally professional, sprayed my smile on and been in work every day but I'm in bits about how I didn't see this coming. I put everything into my interview and presentation and now feel totally rejected and don't know how I move on. I am looking for other jobs, but there's nothing suitable at the moment to be honest I absolutely love this school. I don't want to leave. But I've realised I can't motivate myself to do anything. I just feel broken and like I am watching the world from the outside but I'm not part of it.