Thanks hiptight I’m afraid that was a bit of a soapbox. I was originally a religious studies teacher who started in schools straight after 9/11. I chose RS because it was the closest thing to social science and particularly anthropology (my first degree and something I did fieldwork in the Middle East for).
I saw my job as yes ticking all the right boxes and ensuring great grades (easy when you have passion for your subject and faith in even, or especially, those students who’ve been written off) but more importantly encouraging questioning, examination of one’s own, and others beliefs, assumptions and values and culture.
I did it really fucking well tbf. In my nqt year I got the highest exam results in the school-not just the a*s but the, to me magical, c grades from those not predicted to get any a-c grades.
In recent years I’ve taught a non specialist subject that is really challenging and it has been really tough but I’ve managed and student progress has been on track and appraisals glowing. I miss feeling passionate and deeply competent though. Kids deserve teachers with deep subject knowledge, passion and at least some retention of the mission they entered teaching with.
I’ve had two breakdowns and subsequent resign and retreat times during my teaching career. Both brought on by total mismanagement and outrageous treatment and disregard for teachers and students well being. Yet I’ve recuperated and ended up going back because actually I ‘am’ a teacher and even in a broken system it’s still my vocation.
I’m not nicey nice. My students know I can be sarcastic and have a dark sense of humour at times. I’m not going to sit here and say oh I love and miss my pupils I’d go back in a heartbeat even risking my life. Bollocks. I have some self respect, some healthy boundaries and integrity-qualities young people need to see role modelled.
I’ve put up with all manner of shit and pushing and pushing of my boundaries thanks to political agendas and mismanagement since i started. If society is now majority declaration that it just wants cheap disposable childcare that’s not me and I will bow out.
Fuck it. Britain doesn’t deserve good teachers if that’s all they value them as and they don’t think they deserve even the workers rights of a bus driver and no one respects their opinion on whether they can keep children safe.
This is an essay that I’m not going to read over. It’s a fuck it and post rant. Sorry