It was my fault. A complete accident, but my fault. I don't think I've ever felt so guilty. I only had her a really short time, I can't believe this has happened. I would pay a million pounds to turn back the clock by an hour. Her sister is looking for her. My 2 year old will be looking for her tomorrow. It must have been such a horrible way to go. I wanted to give her the best, most happy long life I could possibly imagine. Now I think I should give up her sister as I'm obviously not careful or responsible enough to have a pet 😢😢😢😢 I'm the most stupid, awful person! My poor baby deserved such better care. She was so funny and friendly and loving and she was settling into our family so well. We loved her. Her sister was much shyer and always looked to her for guidance 😢 I can't stop crying, for both of them. I really don't want to go into it, but it was a horrible way to go. Some things on google says it would be really quick, some said it would have took 20 minutes. I can't stop googling and thinking about my poor girl. If love could bring her back, it would. I actually feel lower than I've ever felt knowing I brought this pain to the most gentle perfect baby kitten. I'll miss her for the rest of my life.