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Original poster

Can someone hold my hand please. My beloved dog is being pts tomorrow.

114 replies

Shitmyhairdressersays · 28/05/2015 20:25

And my heart is absolutely broken.
He has been in my life 14 years. He is 15 and a half now.
He's been arthritic for a long while and now has kidney problems too I think from the meds.
He is suffering and it's time.
But oh my heart is shattered.
He's my best friend and we have been through so much.
I don't know what I'm going to do when he's gone.
Just needed to tell someone who 'gets it'.

OP posts:
hennipenni · 29/05/2015 13:51

Thinking of you and your lovely much loved boy, it does get easier in time and one day you'll look back with fondness, not sadness xxxx

Legionofboom · 29/05/2015 13:58

So very very sorry.
Never doubt that Scraggy knows exactly how much you love him. He doesn't need to hear you say the words to know that. He has never been able to say the words to you and yet you know he loves you too.
Thinking of you. Flowers

SagaNorensLeatherTrousers · 29/05/2015 14:02

Sad So very sorry you're losing your friend today. I am sure he is grateful for the wonderful, loving life you have given him. Flowers

honeyandfizz · 29/05/2015 14:20

Oh blimey I hope you are ok and scraggy went peacefully xxx

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Shitmyhairdressersays · 29/05/2015 15:08

He's gone.
He was dozing on his bed when the vet was due to arrive. It was like he knew because normally he wouldn't let me touch his paws but he didn't pull them away today when I touched them.
Then I got a call from the vet to say what time where we expecting them and would 2pm be ok.
I said no I was expecting them now.
Then I felt awful like I was trying to rush this happening. I wasn't but had got my head round what we'd arranged and couldn't bear to sit for several more hours like this so the vet came out.
She came with a vet nurse who was lovely. I lead them through to him and he was just lying there. He looked a little confused as to who these two strangers were that had come to see him.
They talked me through what would happen and I signed the form. Then they shaved his paw and she asked if it was ok to start, I said yes.
I looked him straight in his eyes and told him again and again how much I loved him and how he was the best dog in the world. He was so brave.
Then he just gently stopped breathing and my heart broke in two.
I wanted to tell them I'd changed my mind but I knew it was too late.
They left me for a few minutes then and I kissed his head and stroked him and kept telling him how much I loved him in case he could still hear.
Then I closed his eyes and went and fetched them back into the room.
She asked me if I wanted a clipping of his fur but I took one yesterday. Then gave me a leaflet and explained about the urns and confirmed that he would have a private cremation and his ashes would be returned to me. I asked for his collar and they took it off his neck.
They wrapped him in a lovely blanket they'd brought and I told them to look after him.
Then they left.
I decided the kids needed to know the truth and not that he went in his sleep.
So their dad has told them now. I think they were expecting it and after crying seemed ok but it's when they come home Sunday that it will hit home.
The house is so empty and even though it's so quiet I keep thinking I can hear him breathing (his bed was right outside my bedroom and I often used to hear him snoring).
I tidied up his carpet runners (we have wood flooring and he slipped a lot when he became arthritic so had a path of carpet runners all through downstairs) and washed his bowls.
I don't really know what I'm doing I'm not trying to wipe out signs of him but just trying to lessen the pain I think (not that that will happen).
How am I going to get by without my wonderful boy?

Thank you so much to each of you for sharing your stories and holding my hand, you made this a little less painful and I don't know how I would have got through this without you.
Emily thank you for emailing me the sheet. X It came just in time and helped.
I will email you back when I can stop crying.

Sleep peacefully Scraggy. You had the heart of a lion. X

Sorry for the essay

X

Can someone hold my hand please. My beloved dog is being pts tomorrow.
OP posts:
Hoplikeabunny · 29/05/2015 15:20

I am so sorry Sad He was beautiful, and your love for him shines through your post. Please take care of yourself, you will begin to heal, even if you don't feel like you will at the moment. Flowers

Ducky23 · 29/05/2015 15:22

Am in tears reading that SadThanks

Rip scraggy. X

So sorry x

Legionofboom · 29/05/2015 15:23

It sounds as though it was a peaceful end with no stress for your beloved boy.

Sleep well Scraggy x

Flowers for you

TheoriginalLEM · 29/05/2015 15:24

Oh sweetheart, i have tears in my eyes reading your last post Flowers

I totally understand that feeling of wanting to change your mind, i have wanted to scream stop each time i have lost one of my lovely animal friends. But you don't because you know you are doing the right thing and letting them go before they suffer.

Again, the same with telling them you love them, over and over - but they know.

I am so glad you were able to be there with him.

Be kind to yourself and allow yourself to greive.

I had to remove all of my dogs things too, the next day we went out and bought a lovely photo frame to put some pictures in to remind us of our lovely boy, im looking at them now. It still hurts that he isn't here anymore, he made such a vast difference to my life, but i can look at the picture and remember the day that me and DP took a sneaky day off work and had a lovely day walking with him.

Flowers
LuluJakey1 · 29/05/2015 15:26

He was beautiful, what a lovely face. You have done everything you could for him right until the very end and it is going to take you time to come to terms with him not being there. Look after yourself. You won't ever lose him because you'll never forget him and I do believe you'll see him again. Flowers

Str1p3yl3af · 29/05/2015 15:32

Oh he's absolutely lovely. Be kind to yourself. You've done the kindest thing.

No more pain x

MsAdorabelleDearheartVonLipwig · 29/05/2015 15:40

I had tears too reading that, it brought it back a little. I'm glad you've found some comfort from our ramblings though, we do understand.

I hope you feel better. Just give yourself some time, take as long as you need.

Flowers
Jenda · 29/05/2015 15:49

I'm so so sorry, I've just read this whole thread in a carpark absolutely sobbing, I look mad!!

Such lovely words from people here, especially Ottilia, really got me! I just want to add that you don't hear love, you feel it and I have no doubt Scraggy felt utterly loved right up to the end.

its so sad when we lose our pets, they are family and silently go through so much with us. My dog is old and I just dread the day. I lost my 21 year old cat a few years ago and I still cry over him, it's painful but I promise as time goes on you will feel less grief when you think of him and the happy memories will come back, although they will probably always make you weepy.

Thinking of you Thanks

CPtart · 29/05/2015 16:28

What a gorgeous dog, he looks a real character. We had our dog pts 20 years ago and this thread brings it all back. The DC are asking why I'm crying. Animals enrich our lives in so many ways, you were both lucky to have each other. We found scattering ashes in her favourite walking place a great comfort, as well as a few in the garden so she would always be close.

EmilyCHN · 29/05/2015 16:44

Sending you lots and lots of love. So glad you got the info in time. Sounds like it went as well as possible. Be kind to yourself in the next days, weeks and months. Allow yourself the space to grieve, do what feels appropriate for you and make changes when you feel ready. I still have my Pimm's lead and it's been 3 years.. I can still hear his tippy toes tap dancing on our wooden floors when he'd go loopy before a walk .. We are PRIVILEDGED indeed to be allowed pets in our lives! Warmest wishes to all that are pet-bereaved.

EmilyCHN · 29/05/2015 16:50

This may help..
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OttiliaVonBCup · 29/05/2015 16:50

Lots oh hugs.

They do break our hearts, the stinky buggers.

ditavonteesed · 29/05/2015 17:17

Flowers no words, I am so sorry x

LokiBuddyBoo1 · 29/05/2015 17:46

Had my boy pts nearly two years ago he was 15 years 11 months old and had kidney failure it was sudden one day he was just off his food the next day he couldn't even get out of his bed.
He went peacefully with me holding his head and stroking him telling him he was a good boy and that I loved him.
Try to remember the good times with him and that what your doing for him is out of love and is the best thing for him right now.

spiderlight · 29/05/2015 17:58

What a cheeky little face! He looks a real character. I'm glad it was so calm and peaceful for him. Sleep tight Scraggy.

Calipto · 29/05/2015 17:58

Hugs OP. Am crying with you reading your lovely tribute. He looked a gorgeous boy.

Be kind to yourself

Wolfiefan · 29/05/2015 18:15

So sorry you have lost your beautiful boy. Be kind to yourself. You did everything right and he was as lucky to have you as you were to have him.

DrankSangriaInThePark · 29/05/2015 19:19

Oh he looks such a scamp!

Glad it went as well as it could, OP, and you were together at the end.

Be kind to yourself. xx

SallyMcgally · 29/05/2015 19:31

Your beautiful boy. He had a lovely life with you and the gentlest of ends, and of course he knew you loved him. Thinking of you. It was a wonderful, generous gift that you did today for your gorgeous dog xxx it does get easier Thanks

yongnian · 29/05/2015 20:53

Oh lovely, was thinking of you at 11.15pm...Flowers
Run free Scraggy, no more pain XxX

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