I'm so sorry for you. I know exactly what you're going through too. We lost our old boy nearly six months ago. Not a day goes by when I don't think of him at some point. He was such a massive part of our lives. We had him before the kids came along and he was like our first child!
What I found a huge help was posting on here. I had some lovely messages of support when he was ill and then when he died. I had people message me with such kind words. Keep posting on here if it helps, there's lots of lovely people on here.
Our boys ashes took just under two weeks to come back. They were in a beautiful pouch woven out of rushes with a ribbon round and a pretty label with his name on. We keep it in a cupboard beside our bed. He liked to get up there for a snooze away from all the noise.
Emily is spot on. It will be quiet and gentle and you'll get to say goodbye. It could be so much worse. It's lovely that you'll be at home.
We have a puppy now. I often compare them, most unfairly as they are different dogs, but I still miss my old boy so much. It's lovely having a dog in the house again though, it really is. Someone said to me that it's testament to how much you loved them that you need to replace that in your life. It certainly keeps me busy. And he is adorable!
I'll be thinking of you tomorrow. Just remember that it really is the final act of love. It's the last thing you can do for him and you'll always be glad that you didn't let him suffer.
