Hi all, I have mental health issues and feel like I am addicted to cocodomol, it gives me like a burst of energy where I feel like I am the person I am supposed to be. Excited, spontaneous etc. Without it I feel numb and empty. I have been using solpadiene max from the chemist but never go over the daily limit.
I have ocd also so I feel like it's a compulsion now at this rate. I've been addicted to it before and came off it then when my mental health got bad again I started it again. I also found some tramadol in my cupboard which I've just taken 2 of. I had a round of ECT today so my head feels a little achy and paracetamol and ibuprofen do nothing.
Please tell me that I'm not the only one? I feel like such a waste of space and a loser. I had to defer uni due to mental health, I have a dh and 4 kids who are my world but I just feel like I can't function "happily" and everything is always a chore when I haven't taken any of the opiates. I have diazpam but that doesn't even do anything "mentally" for me so I only use that when I'm having a panic attack or my anxiety is really bad.
I guess I'm just getting frustrated as I just want to feel normal. I want to wake in the morning feeling refreshed and look forward to the day ahead. 😪