Jive Bishop and The Surfettes: Surfing on

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Welcome to our support thread for anyone struggling with cocaine. Whether you want to quit, cut down or are someone whose life is affected, all welcome.
We offer non judgemental advice, tips, some absurd chat and most importantly lots of support and encouragement.
Come and join and we'll hopefully all help each other to surf the urges!

I'm wearing day-glo plus fours.

We'll fit right in

I can see us all being in with the golfing crowd!

Ooh golfing great. I'm sure we all have a large, ahem, handicap and can't resist whizzing around the course at full speed.

Talking of resisting I am almost four weeks clean and craving like mad on this Friday eve!

Cling on to that board Ponz, put your special golfing shoes out of sight! You're doing bloody great. I've been striving for a long time for a month clean. I was thinking of rewarding myself with something? (non drug related) if I can do it as incentive.

I too am driving myself mad today. Feeling smug after jogging home, had a shower and now having an internal argument with my pesky addict brain.

At Cotswolds hotel we were very tempted by the golf buggies

There'll be no mucking about on golf buggies Dusty. Golf is a very quiet serious sport, perfect for us sensible types. We'll be playing the game in a very respectable fashion.

How's everyone doing? The date went ahead, he was nice enough, a tad young at 30 don't tell my mother! Very mature and sensible for his years and quite good looking but hmm... there wasn't that 'click' and he couldn't finish his 3rd pint so I politely helped out I think I am destined for only bad boys...

He sounds nice Hooch (and sensible)! There must be some middle ground- not a bad boy but can handle 3 pints and thunderstorms..

I lost my head yesterday and had a massive all night coke binge. Really stupid and irresponsible and fuck what am I doing. Don't even want to think how much I spent and what I'm doing to myself. Oh God.

Try not to beat yourself up Lost, it's easily done. Classic end of the week give yourself a treat behaviour. I was very tempted last night after my 'sensible' evening but I had been rather rude to Mr BI and my pride wouldn't let me contact him thankfully. I hope you haven't got too much of a busy day ahead, sending hugs x

I sploshed last night too lost. I think we're banned from the golf club!

Went round a friends house and they'd got some, arrived home at 2 this morning high as a kite. Have had about 2 minutes sleep. Why do we do this to ourselves?

Because it feels great at the time and our naughty brains conveniently forget the aftermath Just concentrate on getting through the day and try not to over analyse things. I'll polish up some new surfboards for you both, looks like joining the golf club wasn't such a good idea!

Thanks Hooch you're very kind. I'm far too good at ignoring the little voice telling me it's not a good idea and also I'm an idiot.

It's probably awful that I feel a bit better hearing that you messed up too Serial. I hope you're ok. It was quite possible that my heart could have exploded yesterday. I was irresponsibly stupidly high.
and now I've written off today.
blah blah moan... Sorry I'll shut up now. Back later in hopefully a better frame of mind.

Yes, thank you hooch.

It makes me feel better too knowing that I wasn't alone in falling off the surfboard. Starting to feel more human now. Might try some Dr Beer in a bit.

I can still smell it and taste it and keep thinking how this time last night was so much more exciting. No danger of getting hold of any tonight - but I'd really like to.

Hope the medicinal beer helped
I've had a bath and putting this day to bed. Feel dreadful and not human.
Back on my new board tomorrow x

I got higher last night than I have in about a year. And I hate to admit this - I loved it.

Serial I'm hitting you round the head with a wet fish. Get your pjs on (doctor's orders).

I know what you mean though. That euphoric feeling is amazing and makes me want to go back to it again and again. My binges are not good though.. I turn into a coke fiend

We need a new hobby. We're shunned by the golfing community and trainspotting is a no no.

Maybe we should try crochet?!

I am going to bed soon, I'm suffering from come down feeling sorry for myself syndrome.

Aye me too. Tomorrow will be a new day and a chance for you to buy some crochet equipment.

SOS I seem to have lost my board temporarily, despite resolve to stay on it this weekend. Just one of those nights in when the secret stash appears...

Crochet? Is that easier than golf?

It is although you can get hooked!

How are you feeling this morning dusty?