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[serialtester]

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Oh that sounds worrying. Thinking of you and your mum.
A and E on a Friday night isn't much fun.. you're right, thank gawd you're not off your tits.

Well done Pickle! How amazingly strong you are to make that (best) decision. You will SO pleased tomorrow. Like Serial said, you took control - and that is the hardest of all for you.
Charlie - what an awful situation for you. It's crazy that there is no solution for you. Keep writing here, hope it helps.
Sorry about your Mum Serial I hope a and e isn't too busy and she gets seen and sorted quickly.
Keep mainlining the lager (lager lager lager) Lost - get another weekend under your belt. I'll join you

Cheers Zig Really craving the Mega White thing. Dh is pissing me off, although he hasn't technically done anything wrong . In fact, I'm pissing myself off! I think I have a bad case of coke frustration. Fuck I miss the high. .

I'm still hanging around reading occasionally, wanted to post pickle well done! Don't cry, you had a weak moment then pulled it back and got it to fuck. That's amazing strength be proud of yourself! You have properly defeated it now to of been able to flush that away!

I'm
Here. I'm
In a spectacular strop
But I'm here x

Got straight through triage into a bay in resuss (mum not me!) is lively here. She'll be fine - needs IV shit (as do I!) I really want a fag but my mum would kill me. Says the fucking coke head!

Sending love serial sorry I'm being a twat hope you are all ok xxx

You're not being a twat pickle. Being in a+e on a Friday isn't dissimilar to being down the pub at closing time! We're having a great time listening to everyone. I feel all smug and sober. Je swizz un sensible!

Lost, have a cold fosters for me! Currently drinking hospital water.

Still just can't believe I fucking bought it without even realising, after all this time!
How's it
Going serial? Any progress? So sorry you going through this, and thanks for your support xx

We have a bed on a ward. This is going well. Anticipated long wait for treatment/decisions. God bless the NHS. Mother worrying about her bloody make up tomorrow morning. I'm more worried about her bloody lungs. Going offline due to battery issues. Safe surfing.

Sending lots of love and positive vibes to serial, the stupidity of deciding whether to
Flush a bag or not is just so apparent when you have real A&E stuff.
It's just not
Relevant and not
Worth the head space

I. Am. Done. I'm leaving him, he had it all to play for, fair warning and my last bit of hope. I feel strangely calm

Wow what a night on the surfboard you lot! Just catching up...

Serial I hope your mum is doing ok. Thank God you were there for her and hope it's all working out.

Pickle that is amazeballs. Don't think I would have had the guts to flush. Bloody well done.

Nice to meet you Charlie. Sorry that your situation is difficult. Shit that you can't get what you need on nhs

Sunday my poor love Don't know your reasons but sounds like you know what you are doing. Hope you are ok.

Just a slight sambucca hangover here so going back to bed for a bit. Catch up with you all later x

Ah Sunday I've just remembered your posts from the other day now. That's a massive step you have taken, well done girl. If it feels right and you're not happy then you are doing the right thing. Come on here for support whenever you need it xx

Sunday- you sound very determined. It sounds like he's making you so unhappy. Life is too short for someone to be constantly bringing you down. I'm crap with advice, but keep posting if it helps

Hello surfers please can I join. I've lurked a teeny bit but by no means read the whole thing. I like the cut of your jibs though.

Scraped out last wrap for a pathetic line last night whilst prepping for DDs birthday.

No one knows. Drinking too much too.

Determined not to buy more.

Would love some support.

Hi Ponzu, welcome! You've come to the right place and made the first step, don't buy anymore I drink far too much too but have managed 4 weeks without any and being on here really helps. I'm sure the others will be along soon to offer support x

Thanks.

Dealer not in my town so makes life easier but tend to stockpile then use every couple of days even school night

Feeling pickled ashamed and guilty. But here is to day one.

Morning surfers.

Lovely Sunday, that's a brave decision but it sounds like the right one. It must all feel overwhelming at the moment but keep your eye on the end goal. Wishing you strength. You're welcome to let it all out on here.

Serial hope you got some rest last night. Get well soon Serial's mum.

I'm ashamed to say I lost my head last night and went overboard. I'm wrecked today. I despair, I'm stuck in this cycle of use and can't seem to break out of it. Not impressed with myself at all.

Hi Ponzu Welcome to the thread
Hopefully we can support each other. We all understand and I admire your determination, that's half the battle with this crap. Keep posting, it really does help.
Hope your dd has a lovely birthday.

Thanks lost sorry you are so down I know that horrible anxious nervous shameful morning after thing when one has led to far too many plus booze plus too little sleep. Fucking awful. Try and be kind to yourself.

My problem is I'm now a secret user after giving it all up years ago apart from the odd ( twice a year) 'open' night out on the E and the Coke when we all pretend to be 28 again. I'm nearer 50 now and my use has become a shameful ridiculous prop against boredom tedium middle aged tiredness. I feel pathetic about it.

Yes that's exactly how I feel Ponzu a shaky mess and lots to do today, arrghh, although I'd quite like to hide and not be a grown up today.

I'm the same; lots of drugs and partying in my younger days and now desperately trying to function as a responsible adult with this shameful secret addiction. It is a ridiculous prop, you're right.

Anyway enough self loathing, Day 1 for both of us on the surfboard.

Morning all, welcome ponzu. Having a clean weekend here, that's the plan. Seem to be able to manage a 2-week interval which helps my sinuses recover. If I wasn't 'allergic ' I know I'd be on it so much more. It certainly relieves the middle-aged tedium...

Well I've got none in the house so that should help. First time in ages. Feel a bit nervous about it.