Wave your snorkel in the air like you just don't care!

[serialtester]

Open.

Lost, say something wise!

[GotToGetMyFingerOut]

Kinetic, are you alright?? That's great about your meds! Well done.

[ILostItInTheEarlyNineties]

Maybe you could get your tits out instead to spice things up?

Really struggling tonight. Not even drinking today as I don't trust myself! I get what you mean, Got. Really craving that shiny happy sparkling rushing feeling.

[kineticmagnetic]

I've told everyone who matters and no one gives a shit. Going to get off my face now

[ILostItInTheEarlyNineties]

Kinetic I care!! It's brilliant news, I wasn't sure if you wanted to talk about it.

I'm sure staying off the white stuff has helped in your recovery. Do you think coke affects your BPD? I'm not very knowledgeable about it at all so sorry for my ignorance!

[kineticmagnetic]

Staying off it helps massively but I need something now. My ex won't talk to DD and I have no one and I have cracked.

[GotToGetMyFingerOut]

Kinetic you know the only person you would be doing a disservice by getting off your tits is yourself? That won't make you feel any better at all, especially tomorrow when you wake up with a come down!

[GotToGetMyFingerOut]

Kinetic you do have someone you have your daughter and if her dads not answering and all she has is you then all the more reason not to get off your tits. Then you can get up fresh tomorrow and have a lovely day together, maybe go see beauty and the beast (it's amazing) and some lunch or dinner?

Come on you have done this for a year now, you can DO this!!

[kineticmagnetic]

Sorry, it's not her dad, we split up before I knew I was pregnant-he isn't involved. Was with my ex 5ish years and she loves him so much. I don't want to do anything, I just don't know how to work.

[ILostItInTheEarlyNineties]

Got's right, it will only help for such a short time and then you'll feel worse.
I know it's easy for me to say that and hard to do but try not to lose your head!
Cling onto your surfboard with me, I'm battling against it too. I'm doing the "leave it now, see how I feel in half an hour" technique.

[GotToGetMyFingerOut]

Men can be such wankers can't they. How long have have you been split up and is it just recently he's not speaking to her?

[GotToGetMyFingerOut]

Lost come on three weeks for you, two for me......you need to lead by example 😉

[ILostItInTheEarlyNineties]

Kinetic it sounds like a shit situation for you. Please don't feel like it's your fault, you can't control how your ex behaves. The most important thing is that she has her mum.
You are there for your dd and have battled a lot to be there for her. And you have your lovely house. You're doing great and Hug.

[serialtester]

Been to the pub and had a right old laugh. Chips for tea. Am having a wine, listening to tunes and am going to bed soon.

Kinetic - having your meds cut is ACE do not self sabotage by getting fucked up. Trust me - I know BPD shit.

[ILostItInTheEarlyNineties]

Thanks Got we're both doing good aren't we? It feels like ages though!
I can do this if I use all my distraction techniques and ride it out. There's a tiny voice saying "Fuck it, It's Friday" so that's a slight problem.
Going for a fag in the garden to clear my head.

[ZiggertyZaggerty]

Off the board... big time. Since this afternoon. Please chuck me some arm bands or something...

[ILostItInTheEarlyNineties]

Ah the lovely straight talking Serial you call a spade a spade, no messing

Mantra of the Evening: DO NOT SELF SABOTAGE.
(Courtesy of The chip eating Bishop)

[serialtester]

Zig, have a dry suit and snorkel!

Lost, keep surfing.

[ZiggertyZaggerty]

Switching off for fear off waffling... can I please dole out my guilt tomorrow. God I'm sooo weak. But I like it - it's such a love - hate thing...

[GotToGetMyFingerOut]

its done now Zig, so just embrace and enjoy it and slip your arm bands back on tomorrow.

[serialtester]

Keep in mind tomorrow morning. A hangover is something you can work with. Fear, loathing and feeling like fucking shit - not so much.

[kineticmagnetic]

We split about 11 months ago, he's not spoken to her for 4 months.
I really want to be good but really want some. No idea where I am on my surfboard think it's far away in the sea and I'm searching for it

[ILostItInTheEarlyNineties]

Oh Zig I'm actually seething with jealousy and I'm coming over to yours tonight. I'll bring armbands, wine and some small straws.

[serialtester]

An hour, and that's what it is, of feeling ace is not worth the comedown. Everyone fill their snorkel with wine!

[kineticmagnetic]

Just messaged dealer's boss asking for tick

[ILostItInTheEarlyNineties]

Good shout. Less whining, more wining