The bishop leads the turkeys out of dangerous waters. Arm bands optional.

[serialtester]

Open!!

Ah FFS Dh has said that he has organised 'dessert' I'm on a diet. This is not going to happen!! Armbands are needed please

I've thought about this a lot and my theory is that I'm a perfectionist so I'm not keen on getting drunk because I don't like being out of control. Over-spending is down to wanting everything to be perfect too so things need to be replaced if they're looking a bit worn out or shoddy.
I am aware that I look far from perfect however!
Sorry - nothing to do with this thread really.

I really really need to have a clear head and a decent night's sleep. I will stay strong tonight. I really will, I could bloody BATTER Dh, he knows how much it messes with my head

Sunday, hurling armbands at you left right and centre! I cannot resist it if it's in the house! Sending strong vibes to you...

Witty I can identify with that. I love your theory on the control thing. Cocaine really messes your brain up in that way because it makes you feel totally in control. I can drink way more on it as well because it makes me so alert.

Realised my awful headache from earlier was because I haven't had coffee all day, duh! Dh bought some on his way home and headache gone. So that's another addiction to add to my list

I'm going to have something to eat and then have a bath and get into my pjs. If he wants to get fucked up on his own he can fill his boots. Wish me luck surfers I am going to need it!

I need to review the mindset of NA based on wine.
Basically I cannot control it and once I let go of the fact that I was 'resisting' something and just stop trying to control it I felt so much better.

I'm going through the same process with wine at the minute and I drive myself crazy because I know it's all in the mind but yet I over obsess again.

I did it with fags too, speed, mdma, work. The works!!

sunday good work, you going to be smug as fuck tomorrow!!!

Pickle you always befuddle me with your mindset theories
If I let go of the fact that I'm resisting the white stuff, surely I'll just text my friendly neighbourhood dealer???

Sunday I'm heading over to yours to confiscate the drugs

MrD still in pub but called to say he went shopping for dessert but they were out of stock. Not sure how I feel about that as I was kind of looking forward to a few tomorrow but looks like we'll be beached

Sunday I will send him over to yours, he can party with MrSunday

Ah sorry, I've had far too much therapy!!

Basically either do it and really really own it and enjoy it, or don't and be happy with that too.

The guilt and self loathing because you gave in is the worst way to feel about it.

Sorry if I didn't explain myself properly

Ooh that's a horrible feeling, Dusty, when you've talked yourself into doing some and then you can't get it! Once you get over that first initial crushing disappointment it's actually ok.

It's definitely worth it in the long run to have a clean weekend, otherwise it gets too "habitty" if you see what I mean.

Yes your brain has been therapised Pickle! I'm renaming you Counsellor Pickle. Thanks for breaking it down for my poor brain. I'm sure years of drugs have affected my brain cells .

My problem is the way I delude myself. So I'll tell myself I'll just have a dabble and a beer and 10 hours later I'm off my nut and still not ready to stop. Nearly every fucking time . Would love to get some insight on that. I would love to be able to control it.

I am wrestling with myself so hard right now, just keep thinking 'one little livener won't hurt' it it won't be just one will it?

It's all gone Pete Tong in Hoohi Land. Sorry surfers for being a bad influence but 3 double vodkas in the pub have resulted it me scouring my mobile records for deleted numbers and making a call. Am sharing with a friend so shouldn't be too bad but if anyone wants to get a clapped out mini to Essex you are most welcome, otherwise I expect no sympathy tomorrow, sorry again xx

Hoochi don't beat yourself up, we've all done it. I'd be very suggestible after 3 double vodkas.. Back on the board tomorrow sweet.
(I'm on my way to Essex and I love a bit of Pete Tong!)

Sunday keep strong if you can, cling on to me, I'm still on the surfboard, although choppy waters here. I've got Kisstory on the radio and downing a lager.

Still on the surfboard. Said no to a tempting invitation tonight. Played the film to the end I.e still being up at 6 tomorrow and utterly fucked. Wine please!!

Embrace hoochi!
Either go for it and feel no guilt at all and bloody enjoy the fun, the chats, the freedom or cancel and feel smug.

Either way feel smug!!! You've either had a fab time to look back on with no trailing guilt or you've said no and enjoying that too!

Honestly I'd fucking floor the Mini up the M3 if I hadn't already sunk 3/4 bottle of Sauvignon my lovely!!

Have a fantastic night, I'm currently trowelling on some kind of algae shit to try to reduce the effect of my misspent youth. Smells like a sewer.

Really not what I had in mind, but there we go! Obviously I'll wake up and look 25!

serial I have a second bottle, swing by! I'll smell of algae, but still

Ps lost yes I have therapied my arse off for a loooong time!

DH calls me Oprah. I annoy myself a lot so I am sorry if I get all Ricky Lake (remember her?!)

Oh my lovelies I'm so old I can't read the small text but feel the lpve... If I come on here in the morning expecting sympathy ignore me, it serves be right. Surf on Surfers x

Sending love hoochi!!
I love this thread

P.s whet is going on with the Algae?

I have a face mask.... I look like shrek and smell like a fuckig sewer my lovely.

I'd better wake up looking 25 or I'll be furious

Ha ha at the Shrek face mask. You'll look Fiona after, the non ogre version of course. Just don't drip it in the wine!

Anyone else wondering what serial's very tempting offer was this evening? Russell Brand inviting you for a debauched weekend in Amsterdam? Or the Gallaghers asking you to ditch your life and go on tour? The mind boggles.