Professor White and the line dancing surfers eat cold turkey

[serialtester]

Welcome to the surfboard!

I can feel a dabble coming on 🙈

This thread reads like the inside of my head!!

Yep, it's the regrets and hating yourself and lying to yourself and others that is the crap element.

Either be delighted you've had a great time when its snowed or be delighted you e had a day that you've not done it or wanted to but did something else.

The doing it/not doing it while hating yourself is the real crappy bit of my head to be in.

I drink far too much now, there always has to be some form of rebellion with me, I just can't behave in a moderate fashion with anything

See I don't think a wee dabble is too much hardship at the weekend, compared to the amount of alcohol(insert wine or whiskey here as appropriate) that could very easily be consumed.
The problem for me is, it clears me up nice and sober so I drink some, then do some more!
Trying to moderate is the key for weekend fun.
Happy evenings to all.

Serial, if GB and OR are on the night out please count me well and truly in!

Will return in the morning. Don't want to be triggering.
Thanks for that Pickle I need to make my brain work like that somehow. Keep your lovely advice coming.

Cleaning swerve it if you can. x

serial you can be George.

I spent all my money on booze and drugs - the rest I wasted!

Costa, Lost, Cleaning, everyone - sweet dreams of the epic turkey night out!

Pickle, I drink far too much in lieu of coke. Shit isn't it?

Good night one and all!
Tomorrow is another day, as they say.

Yep, I've gone through giving up Coke, mdma, weed, speed,
Legal highs, and fags.
Booze is the last one left!!
Can't seem to do it I HAVE to misbehave somehow!

I do have nice wine though and really enjoy every glass!

It's honestly like this thread is reading my mind it's so weird!

Welcome to the church Pickle! You're one step ahead of me, I still smoke like a bastard.

Current state of mind:
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The snow was the highest high, for some reason. Think it was the short term thing. I always got bored waiting for Mandy to show up!

Anyway I don't look back with any regrets any more.

I've done the deceiving and the panic and the going through phone bills trying to find the number I'd deleted the morning before and the hiding it.

I took it at home, day and night, at parents evening, on planes, at airports, at work, all manner of really dangerous things, but I'm kind of not looking back in horror.

I'm looking back thinking 'fuck me that was close but I got away with it'

On that note.. Pouring more wine

So the usual Saturday night scenario is playing out...

what do you mean usual? Sorry just not sure I'm up to date on this thread

Oh I just meant my usual scenario - I wasn't talking about anyone else

Oh ok, sorry, I'm with you now!!

I've only been on here a couple of time in this last week. But I don't know who else to talk to.

I'm trying so hard but failing. I'm off it now as usual.

Any advice would be welcome. X

Snowball, how are you this morning? Do want to tell us a bit more about your use?

Morning all. Hug for anyone that fell overboard yesterday and new armbands.

Snowball welcome! Keep posting and let us know how you're doing, good or bad we won't judge. Just writing it down helps. Take it day by day Please keep talking.

Cleaning I think your strong arms post means you abstained?

Everything hurts today and all my own fault. Massive binge, I can't moderate at all.
Hello square one; Day one back on the board.

Take it easy today Lost and don't beat yourself up.

Thank you.

I'm still up just pretending my life is "normal"

It's been practically 3 a day since October. I hate myself for doing it, been weak.

Hi snowball is it 3 bags or 3 chops a day? Sorry if you have said already

Lost try a hot bath, also if you have a tennis ball lie on the floor and roll it round your shoulders, if that's possible.

That used to help me a lot, my
Legs ached so much, I also found ibuprofen gel helpful.

I know what you mean about pretending everything is "normal". It starts to become soul destroying. It's possible to change. I've pulled myself back from much heavier use, although I'm still slipping up. It really is a case of sitting out the cravings at first and taking tiny steps forward.

I opened the curtains this morning and saw a couple walking their dog and just thought, Fuck, I want to be a normal person out walking their dog first thing with a spring in my step.
I don't even have a dog

It's 3g a day now. It's getting hard to hide the cost too.