And it's really making me hate myself.
I always used to be quite pretty when I was younger. I was slim, with lovely hair and looked attractive. I'm 35 now and I feel my face has really changed and I'm not sure if it's because I'm heavier now than I used to be (10 stone as opposed to 8 stone). I just feel my face has changed and I've lost the prettiness I used to have. My face almost looks masculine now and is puffy.
I know so many people that are bigger than me but look nice in their photos on FB but I never put any of me on. I used to be in photos all the time but now hate having my photo taken. I want to be able to be in photos again though. I have my hair cut and highlighted regularly but it looks rubbish and never looks right. I wear make up each day but there doesn't seem any point as I look awful.
I've been trying to lose the weight for 2 years since I had my youngest DC. I have to admit I've not been very motivated. I want to get back to being how I was 10 years ago, very focussed on my figure and exercise but I can't and I don't know why. I never get any time to myself to do any exercise, and if I try to do a DVD at home my 2 year old plays up, and he doesn't nap in the day.
What do I do? I can't go on like this