sorry you are feeling down carciofi and hope you feel brighter soon.
bloss can't imagine how mixed your feelings must be in lead-up to 'festive' season. Dec 9th will be a sad day. Hopefully on to happier times afterwards, at least until Boxing Day Carnage (I always think, it's not called Boxing Day for nothing - you really do often want to hit someone by then don't you)
On related note, and with all talk of invitations etc (about which yes, I am excited for Nov/ Dec) - we have been invited to the wedding of some good friends of ours next year. On the anniversary of dd1's birth/ death at the same place where dh and I got married and the place at which we announced that we were pg with her. Is it wrong that I have felt a bit stomach-lurchy since receiving this invitation? Of course we are going and of course it will be a wonderful, happy day but I think I am feeling a bit sensitive atm, partly bc of my friends' baby;s recent death and also weirdly bc ds2 has just turned 1, prob my last baby blah blah
It probably is wrong of me 
Fritzi so sorry about the broken night, get that coffee machine going 
hells am LOL and
re coat but I bet colour is amazing on you. Any sign of the Sees yet?
LOL also re potty tracey. Hope dh perks up is the race off then?
eie will text or call you/ Choo tomorrow, okay?
just played fab fishing game with the dc - involving the hoover and all of the sofa cushions
. Room is trashed!! time to head to the park I think ....