Hello all, thank you for warm wishes and tins of salmon
LTEC hope you are OK
Choo sorry about your friend
Well am about to purchase tracey's dress suggestion- love that colour red! It would be rude not to, ??
The situation with P is all a bit ridiculous. I guess I found out a month ago now, but he's still here!!? It's further complicated by the fact that he has 2 houses elsewhere but we are renting where we live so it would surely be easier for me to stay here with baby and return to work and exams looming. Oh no, he doesn't want to move. He claims nothing happened (I won't go into details but it really did happen I have much evidence) and worse still is the timing of the whole thing, just gross gross gross really. He doesn't appreciate what he has at home- I did a bit of googling, she is not pretty, in her emails she cannot spell, cannot understand basic jokes, is really thick, kept asking him for money, I mean- what was he thinking?! It started months before DD even got ill so his excuse about being lonely when DD was ill is all a load of bllocks! And it's not like he was at all neglected at home I honestly veer from thinking, hmm, maybe this will make him realise what an idiot he has been and he will now be lovely and of course deep down even though he is very bad for me I still have feelings for him because I have had 2 children with him, and then reality kicks in and I think yuck what a bstard. I don't really have friends/family nearby so it's difficult with a small baby as you all know to make that leap yourself. We weren't getting on but ironically he was the one who always accused me of affairs/flirting/etc when all along he was the guilty one!
Anyway enough ranting from me, I have done some therapeutic clearing out of wardrobe (this started due to thinking I might just up and leave but alas spaces have now been overtaken by new things! avid but not wise)
Also went and had teeth whitenened using zoom but they only got one shade lighter, and are now the same as before I had it done! All that newshoemoney effort for nothing really. Didn't hurt though, they said to expect 'zingers' of pain and there were none.
Oh and in a fit of 'god I must be hideous' I went to a harley street surgeon (yes, I am extreme) about my nose. He said 'your nose is perfect' and 'fits your face perfectly' and 'is the textbook lovely nose' and 'many people would say you are rather beautiful' and then sent me away. Strangely I do not begrudge paying silly money to see this man, I am now reassured that it would be mad to change it and risk a major operation and I would probably look worse afterwards.