Well done Sarah! You are doing brilliantly, you are there now on the sunny side. Sadly I am not.
Thank you for your encouragement, KitKat but I had fallen just before I read your post but was too ashamed to post my failure that day.
What happened was I had a terrible night not sleeping (and sweating -was that withdrawal?) really spooked by scratching sounds (mice, RATS?) inside the walls of the converted barn where I was staying, right by my bed. I thought I can't go another night here and rang my OH asking him to come and get me. He was also meant to be giving up but had found some cigs in an old jacket...
He stopped at a garage on the way home and you know the rest.
I was 4 hours away from it being 72 hours, so the worst was probably over. I am disappointed with myself but will get determined again very soon.
For those still doing well, or aiming to go cold turkey the truth is there was no pain at all. It wasn't awful, I didn't feel terrible. It was more of a mind game than physical discomfort in my experience. Then when I did light up I actually was feeling fine, but my brain was behind, saying this is what you want, go on, you might as well cos you're going to anyway so may as well get on with it. It was a decision I made - the wrong one.