...I am feeling very depressed at the moment. I sat with my head in my hands and closed my eyes yesterday and almost prayed not to have to get up again.
I feel totally drained with ds's behaviour - it is about the worst it has ever been right now and I really fear for his future. He has Asperger's and ADHD.
He has a cardio appt on Tuesday as he has been having palpitations. This may be a side effect of his medication (Strattera) or just heriditary as I have a floppy heart valve.
He is being checked urgently for precocious puberty and he has increased his SIB. His beloved teacher left at Christmas and he misses her an awful lot.
The last time he self injured, he wrote in his book "today a new force stronger than the devil approached me..." That scared me! He's been under CAMH for over 2 years now.
Just before Christmas his "dad" (who refuses or just wants to ignore that ds is SN) decided that he only wants ds once a fortnight now instead of weekly, although ds has been used to weekly visits for the last 6.5 years.
I'm with ds all the time except when he is at school - I take and collect him, but his dad will not help further. My sister and dad are about the only ones who can deal with him, but they are drained after a few hours.
I know that I may seem self pitying, as some of you have two or more children, but I feel myself slipping into depression. Does anyone have any suggestions please?